Chapter 191: Mess
Arren was so stunned to see Spade cry in front of him that he didn’t even know how to react for a moment, but tears also uncontrollably pooled in his eyes. He could feel the pain and exhaustion just by the emotions from those words alone.
This pain resonated within him, making his heart ache at the same time. Even if he hated to see Spade like this, Arren didn’t leave his eyes off the alpha, even more now. He lifted his hand and cupped the alpha’s face as he also wiped the tears soaking his face.
Spade didn’t make a sound while crying at all, but his tears streamed down his cheeks without stopping for a few minutes. The alpha closed his eyes and leaned his head slightly toward Arren’s hand on his cheek, rubbing them as though seeking comfort.
His silent tears were what made it harder for Arren because this revealed just how much emotion the alpha had been bottling inside him—all the pressure that he chose to bear by himself, alone.
And yet, even at this moment, he was still trying to be strong and not burden anyone. Even though he was tired, Spade never complained. It seemed that it was not only his fever that intensified his emotions; what he discovered today was too heavy for him to bear alone.
"Spade," Arren whispered comfortingly, "I’m here." There were also tears streaming down his cheeks; he couldn’t help but cry while watching Spade’s silent yet painful tears.
As he spoke, Spade suddenly opened his eyes, which were damp with his tears. Their eyes made eye contact. He didn’t say anything but silently wiped Arren’s tears as well.
At this action, a few quiet sobs escaped his mouth. Why was Spade like this? He was supposed to be the one who should comfort him, but the alpha was still doing his best to coax Arren, even in this state.
"Don’t take everything just by yourself anymore; you can share with him. I... I’ll try my best to be of help to you. Please..." he desperately begged in his voice.