Chapter 231: Vulnerable
DACE
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"If Vanessa thinks staying away from you will give Emma peace then I want nothing more"
His words ignited me, fueled me but all I could do was just stand there, watch him with my stoic expression as he walked back to the house. I wanted to pounce on him, go on a killing sprang until every last one of the Shermans dropped dead but each time I pictured Emma’s face, a face I longed to see and touch or her eyes I wanted to pin on me I just...felt weak, vulnerable and damaged without her.
I have been coming here in the past month and yet nothing, Vanessa didn’t spare me a glance nor had I seen her since that day, and just like that 4 weeks passed but yet it felt like months for me, years and I haven’t set my eyes on my baby girl, the weaker I got, muddled and destroyed within me.
I would just watch the house like a fool and yet there was nothing that could be done, there was nothing I could do to get inside that house and as usual I would leave and drown myself in alcohol as if that even worked.
I turned more whiskey into my glass before chugging it.
"You went there again didn’t you?" I heard Emilia but I wasn’t bothered by her presence, I just focused on my drink hoping it would make me sleep... yes I haven’t shut my eyes for a month, I was drowning.
"What kind of a fucking Male am I?" I said turning my head to her, she was just standing next to the bar Island table. I turned my eyes back to the bottle I was drowning. "A pride powerful creature and yet I can’t do anything" my grip on my glass snapped as well as the glass, I just waved my hand off it and grabbed another.
"Sucks, doesn’t it," she said.
It fucking sucks.