Master of Minds, Master of Me

Neil was kind enough to teleport us back to the Palace. I first needed to face the consequences of suddenly disappearing for a day. I explained to my father that my old wounds from the Dark War were just acting up, so I had to get treated at the Tower. Since Neil was the one treating me back then, he would know the best way to handle them now. He luckily bought my lie easily.

Only after one day of absence did the work pile up on my desk. So it took forever to handle everything. And I hate how I just had to leave my pretty flower alone after everything that happened. I need to talk to her. Ask about what they talked about with Theodore. I have, of course, signed a guard to follow her. So I can be a little bit more at ease that she doesn’t escape.

It’s pretty late when I finish all the more urgent work and head back to my room. When I open the door, I immediately see her lying on the couch, reading a book. She peeks at me behind her book.

‘’Are you feeling okay?’’

I feel my muscles relaxing and my breathing getting easier. I smile at her warmly.

‘’I do now. Seeing you always makes me feel good.’’

She sits and puts the book down.

‘’I’m still worried that after what happened, you needed to go straight to work. And I don’t even know what happened in the first place. So could you please tell me?’’

I go sit next to her and lift her to my lap, resting my head against her forehead. It feels like I’m finally able to breathe fully.

‘’Yeah, I can tell you.’’

‘’Could you let me go first? We can’t talk like this ’’

‘’Why not?’’

‘’Because it’s too easy for you to distract me.’’

‘’How would I distract you?’’

‘’Well, for instance, if a topic gets too uncomfortable, it usually ends up with you shoving your dick inside me.’’

I chuckle at her and her glare that clearly lacks power.

‘’You know me so well, don’t you?’’

‘’It wasn’t meant to be funny.’’

‘’I do apologize, but you are just way too cute. But I promise I won’t shove my dick inside you. Well, not at least in the middle of the conversation.’’

She still tries to glare at me, but I can totally sense the creeping lust in her mind. And if she gets horny, that definitely ends up with me shoving my dick inside her, so let’s try to focus on the matter at hand before that happens.

‘’So when Theodore took me, he wanted to see if my mana was okay. I honestly don’t remember much of our conversation; I only remember that anger and fear took control of me. And I felt sharp pain inside me soon after. Then I just woke up in a hospital bed, I had no idea I was asleep the whole day.’’

‘’So is the pain now gone?’’

‘’Yes. It felt similar to what I felt back in the Dark War when the mana appeared. But it wasn’t that strong.”

“Does mana usually cause you pain?”

“No. Never, not after the beginning.”

“So why did it cause it now?”

I take a deep breath. I’m not too eager to admit the situation.

“It means that illusion mana is just growing stronger, demanding more space. Shoving other affinities away. But those other affinities are like blood to me. So if they are shoved away too much, it will be the end of me. So if I want to keep living, I need to shove the illusion mana more inside. Not letting it grow too strong.”

“Is it my fault that it’s acting up this much?”

“No, absolutely not! Don't ever think that. It’s been clear from the start that controlling it gets harder as time passes by. And I have been slacking with my training. So I think that's why it took too much control of me. So I will just train my swordfighting more, since that's the only thing that calms it even slightly. I will get it under control, so there is nothing to worry about.”

Despite my words, all I can sense from her mind is worry. And I feel guilty for making her feel that. I don't know how I could ease her mind and make her trust me.

“Is there anything I could do to help you?”

“All you need to do is stay by my side. I feel like you are my anchor now. Without you, there is nothing.”

As I say those words, I realize exactly how obsessed I am with her. And it’s not just obsession that comes with love. It’s stronger, probably something very toxic.

“You said that anger and fear took control of you. Fear of what exactly?”

Fear of you leaving me. Fear of you wanting death so much that you will make it happen. But I can't tell her that. I don't want to put that kind of pressure and burden on her. I’m too scared that knowing that would make her want to leave.

“I was just scared of what Theodore would do or say. Since he pointed out that one time that there is something odd about you. So I was just scared he would try to examine you or question you about it, making you feel uncomfortable.”

“He did ask to do that. But he didn't push it after I said no.”

“I’m glad I worried for nothing. So what did you talk about with him?”

She falls silent. Probably thinking about what to tell. I feel my anxiety rising. I need to hear her talk. This silence feels suffocating.

“Lo. Please tell me. Your silence is making me worry.”

“Well, I asked him to explain all this three-affinity thing. And he was actually pretty good at explaining things. I asked what kind of things your mana could make you do.”

“What did he say in that?”

“That everything it makes you do is something that lies inside you, buried. So it’s not making you become a different person, just drawing out something that you want to rather keep hidden.”

“That's true. I can sense you are hesitant about something. Does that worry you?”

“No!” Her cheeks flush a little, and her voice turns high-pitched, clearly embarrassed.

“Come on. Tell me what it is. If you want to ask something, just ask.”

“No, it’s embarrassing, so just forget about it.” She turns her head away, averting my gaze.

I turn her to sit so she is facing me, her legs spread to my either side.

“Felix! Stop moving me around!”

“Don't try to escape this. Tell me what you were thinking.”

She lowers her gaze and fiddles with her fingers. So. Fucking. Cute.

“I was just wondering… That if all the features the mana brings out of you are something you want to suffocate. So does that mean you don’t like what you do when the mana takes control of you?”

I have no idea why she is asking or where she is going with all of this.

“Like what things?”

“Like… You know… Don't you like, or do you regret… You know, after your mana settles and you calm down, do you regret things we do like… during sex?”

I just stare at her in total shock. Not even sure what to think. She is acting so cute I could literally just eat her. And her being insecure like that surely wants me to sink my dick, which is rapidly hardening in my pants, into his aching cunt. So I can show her how much I enjoy everything I do for her. And one part of me wants to punish her for even thinking I would regret anything we have done.

“Lo. You really are stretching my patience here.”

“How?”

I slowly slide my hand to his throat, and my cock twitches.

“Since you asking that makes me want to show you exactly how much I love fucking you.’’ I feel her swallowing under my hand. ‘’But I can admit that at first I did slightly regret it. Not because I didn’t like it. I was just afraid that you didn’t, and I would scare you off because of it. You have no idea how much I want to do dirty things to you. But I want more to make sure you are not hurt. That overpowers my own desires. Since I never want to hurt you Lo, not in a way you don’t enjoy.’’

‘’I do… Enjoy it, I mean.’’

Fuck, the look in her eyes drives me crazy. My dirty little flower, being so weak for me. And I have noticed one thing about her during her stay here at the Palace. Even though she enjoys me being rough with her, I can feel her extra excitement whenever I do it to her outside. Or somewhere there is a risk of someone seeing. She always pushes back, saying we can’t do anything and we might get caught. But she can’t lie to me. I know how that excites her. So maybe I could try to make her realize her own kinks too.

‘’Good.’’ I brush my lips against her, and her mouth opens immediately. What an obedient pretty flower, as always.

But there is one thing I need from her before I proceed with my plan tonight.

‘’I need you to promise me something Lo.’’

‘’What?’’

‘’I don’t know how much I can control myself with you, since you have the ability to make me go insane. So I need you to be honest and tell me if anything I do is starting to get too much. Don’t be afraid to say it.’’

She nods, and I feel her gently grinding herself against my hard dick, still tucked inside my pants. I want to rip her panties and sink myself inside of her right now. But not yet. First, I want to do a little experiment with her.

I squeeze her throat a little tighter, and that makes her tighten her thighs against me more.

‘’Want to go on a date, pretty flower?’’

‘’Now?’’

‘’Now.’’

‘’But—’’

‘’That was a rhetorical question. Since I don’t care about your opinion, you are going to just obey and follow me, like good girls do. Am I right?’’

She lets out a sigh and nods.

I let go of her throat. I slip my hands under her and lift her as I stand from the couch. I head toward the balcony and step outside.

‘’Felix. I thought we were already over this whole jumping off the balcony thing.’’

‘’Oh, we are never over it. Since I love how you hold on so tight when I jump.’’

She lets out a little cute yelp as I jump down. I let her down and offer her my hand, and she obediently takes it.

We head to my escape path and walk toward the city.

‘’Where are we going?’’

‘’One of my favourite places to loosen up my nerves, relax and have a good time.’’

‘’And what is that place?’’

‘’Patience, pretty flower. You’ll see.’’

When we arrive at the entrance of the Underground, I hand my pretty flower a masquerade mask, and she looks at me with confusion.

‘’What is this for? Are we going to some kind of party?’’

“No. Just put it on.”

She does, and I open the staircase to the portal. She squeezes my hand a little tighter before we step inside and are faced with the Underground.