Master of Minds, Master of Me

His lips crash to mine, and his dick starts to bury inside me. I forgot how much it hurts when he stretches me to fit his side. It really hurts. I pull the cuffs more, like trying to escape. I know it’s futile, and I really don’t even want to escape. But it’s just some basic survival instinct kicking in.

His tongue slips inside between my lips. And I answer him with mine too. His kiss is so consuming and demanding that I get lost in him once again. So easily. So weakly.

Suddenly, he thrusts himself all the way in before he starts fucking me. I scream into his mouth. I feel so utterly full that I feel like breaking. His right hand leaves my throat and goes to caress my body. Lighting it up.

‘’Promise me Lo, that you don’t leave me.’’ He murmurs against my lips.

‘’I promise.’’

‘’I can’t live without you, Lo.’’

My eyes fill with even more tears. I know he thinks that he is speaking the truth. But he is not. He has lived his life 28 times without me. And when I die. When he kills me. I know he will live his life once again without me, completely blissful about what happened in this life. I’m the one left to suffer. I’m the one being haunted by our memories together, knowing we can never be together. I’m the one who is forced to watch him get married over and over again to some other woman. Suffering alone with my curse. Being alone.

But knowing that he won’t suffer from our memories is my only comfort. Since I don’t want him to suffer. I want him to be happy. Even when I can’t be the one causing him to be happy. And clearly, I’m the one causing him pain, just like today. So his future wives surely will make him happier than I could ever make him.

So all I can do is just enjoy him now while I can. Try to make him happy. He deserves it. So I try to just make up for all the pain I have already caused. Giving myself to him fully until our doom comes to collect us.

‘’Felix. I want to touch you.’’

He chuckles, but the sound is not that dark anymore.

‘’And why would I let you do that?’’

‘’Because I want to touch you. I need to touch you.’’

‘’Fuck Lo. My perfect little slut really is lewd. But lucky for you, I would do anything for you. Since I’m just as weak for you as you are for me.’’

Is he weak for me? The concept of that feels just absurd. But I think I like it. I feel him reaching for the cuffs and snapping them open. My wrists ache when they are finally free from the harsh metal. I immediately let my hands travel against his bare chest. I want to touch every part of him.

‘’Can I take the blindfold off?’’

‘’Oh? You want to see me too? Aren’t you being greedy little slut.’’

‘’Yes. I want to see you.’’

‘’If I let you do that. What will I get in return?’’

What the hell? Is he trying to make some deal once again? I don’t know what I could give him in return. I don’t have anything to give in the first place. He pulls himself a little farther and grips my waist and sinks inside of me even deeper, making my thoughts scramble when my voice echoes from the walls.

Soon, I feel the orgasm getting closer, the intense feeling gathering in my core. Crap. I still want to see him. I don’t want to be in the darkness anymore. What could I give him in return? Of course, one thing would be the truth, but I can’t give him that. I try my best to think while his dick keeps bounding me, making my inner walls clench around him tighter and tighter.

Then I have an idea. But could I really do it? I have never done it. But he has talked about it a couple of times, so I’m sure he would like me to do it. Can I even say it out loud? I gather my courage.

‘’Felix.’’

‘’Yes, pretty flower?’’

He fucks me harder, faster. It’s impossible to speak while I keep moaning so much.

‘’Felix… Stop…’’

To my surprise, he does stop, but keeps himself buried inside me.

‘’What? Was my pretty flower struggling to speak?’’ His voice is teasing. What a jerk.

‘’If you let me take off the blindfold, I could…’’

Oh God, I can’t say it. I really can’t.

‘’Oh? Are you really suggesting a deal? I have to say, I’m extremely curious what you are going to offer me.’’ His voice is annoyingly arrogant.

‘’I could…’’

I feel my cheeks flush. Oh God, how can this be so hard?

‘’You could?’’

‘’I could… maybe… let you come to my… mouth.’’

Oh crap, I actually did say it. Oh, please forgive me God. I feel so embarrassed right now.

His hand wraps around my throat so tightly it makes my eyes water. His lips brush against my ears, and I hear his low growl.

And oh God, hearing that makes my pussy clench so bad.

His free hand slowly moves the blindfold away; the light in the room feels so blinding after the darkness. Then he speaks to my ear.

‘’You drive me so insane Lo.’’

Then he starts fucking me again. He leans back, his hand still on my throat. I finally see him. His intense dark gaze is devouring me, watching me like I’m the only thing in this whole world. His free hand goes to caress my breast again.

I light up even more. I keep touching him too, needing to feel his body against me. I watch him and touch him like he is the only thing in this world too. Since right now he is. He is all I can think of. The finish line nears suddenly, very rapidly. Seeing him like this is just making me go crazy. Watching him go crazy because of me feels so freaking good. This time I really need to come. I really hope he will let me come.

I move my body against him, begging for the orgasm to come and flush over me.

He leans in to kiss me, and he speaks against my lips.

‘’I need you to come for me Lo. Since I’m so close to coming inside your greedy pussy. And I really want to see your lips wrapped around my cock.’’

Listening to him speak just nudges me closer to the edge. I sink my nails into his shoulder, needing the support.

‘’Felix.’’ I moan, trying to tell him that I’m about to come. But the moans suffocate the rest.

‘’I love how you moan my name. My devoted pretty flower, turning into naughty little slut, begging to come.’’

His dirty words tip me from the edge, and I come screaming. My body is trembling as I hold on to his shoulders even tighter. The orgasm floods over my whole body. Every muscle is tensing as I ride the aftermath.

Felix keeps himself buried inside me as I slowly regain my mind back to reality. My body slowly relaxes, and my breathing starts to steady.

‘’You are so divine when you fall apart for me.’’

I open my eyes when I feel his fingers stroking my cheek. Wiping my tears away.

‘’You okay, Lo?’’

I give him a faint smile; I’m too exhausted to smile more widely.

‘’Yes. Although you might have broken my pussy.’’

He chuckles and presses his lips against mine.

‘’Sorry. Will happen again.’’

‘’Don’t you mean to say will not happen again?’’

‘’That would be lying. I will most definitely break your pussy again. So many times.’’

‘’Jerk,’’ I whisper under my breath.

He pulls himself out of me and withdraws, and sits on the bed. I get up to sit too. And just then, I realize he is totally naked. I mean, of course, I knew he was naked. But while fucking I can only see his upper body. So now when I can see him like this…

He just tilts his head and smirks, watching me. But keeps himself silent.

I just keep sliding my gaze on him. Watching every part, every inch, like a woman possessed. I move a little closer to him and place my hand against his chest. Letting them travel slowly, exploring. I feel his racing heartbeat. I feel his gaze on me as I watch him. But he still keeps himself silent, letting me enjoy the sight and feel of him. I go over his neck, his arms, his ribs, his abs. Oh God, his abs are just perfect. I didn’t know a male body could be this beautiful. He is muscular, but not in a bulky way. I slide over his ribs toward his outer thigh. When I reach the knee, I slide my fingers to his inner thigh. I halt when I near his dick. It’s so intimidatingly big. I go around it, wanting to save that for last. I go over the other leg and circle it, returning to his inner thigh and slowly going up.

‘’I swear to God that I’m going to die if you don’t touch me soon Lo. Your teasing is too much to handle.’’

I lift my gaze to his. His eyes burn with lust and need. I didn’t even realize he would think of this as teasing. But I should have. Since I know how his gentle fingers across my body make me feel. It makes me ache for his touch.

So I slide my fingers toward his dick, slowly brushing them against his shaft all the way to the top. It twitches from my touch. Will it even fit in my mouth?

‘’Lo…’’ His voice is low, sounding like a warning.

I don’t know what I should do. Why did I suggest this when I don’t know how to even do it?

‘’I…’’ I feel so embarrassed to say this out loud. ‘’I don’t know what to do. You need to tell me.’’ I feel my cheeks flush from embarrassment.

‘’Fuck you are so fucking cute Lo. So innocent that it makes me want to ruin you just more.’’

His hand grabs my chin, pulling it open.

‘’Open your mouth.’’

I do.

‘’Stick your tongue out.’’

I do.

‘’Such an obedient pretty flower. Now you can start by licking the top.’’

I lean in and let my tongue slide over, circling the tip. I can still taste myself in him. I hear a low sigh from him. And that solely excites me. So I lick more, putting more pressure on it. Getting more confident as I feel his dick twitching from my touch.

‘’Now lick the whole shaft, I want you to clean it from your own arousal.’’

Somehow, that makes my thighs clench together. I tilt his dick with my hand so licking every part is easier.

‘’Perfect. Now, open your mouth wide and take it in. You can do whatever you want, lick it, suck it, or squeeze it with your lips. Just try not to sink your teeth into it. You can start slowly, just moving up and down. You can do it only with your mouth, or you can move your hand along with it. Do whatever you want. Just watching you is going to make me come. I’m trying my best to hold it back. ‘Cause I really want to feel your wet, warm mouth around me.’’

I open my mouth and slide him in. I stretch my jaws so open that I possibly can, so I can fit him in. I could never take his whole dick in. So I first settle only for the tip. Slowly licking it and sucking it. My taste in him starts to slowly disappear. And I taste something bitter in my mouth. But somehow I find the taste good. I take my time learning and trying what I can do. Sometimes I feel his muscles tensing, so I take that as a hint that he likes those things.

His breathing gets heavier. And I sink him inside my mouth a little deeper and suck a little harder.

‘’Fuck Lo. Your mouth takes me in so well. You feel so good.’’

His words give me more confidence and make my movements more demanding. I feel his dick growing even harder inside my mouth.

‘’Deeper.’’ He demands.

And I do my best to do just that. I take him so deep I feel his dick hitting the back of my throat, and it makes me gag. And that makes him groan.

Was gagging a good thing?

‘’Again.’’

I repeat the motion, and he lets out a groan again. I feel the saliva dripping out of the corner of my mouth. I withdraw and swallow it before taking him deep again. Another gag and another groan.

The saliva falls out instantly, and I start to pull out again.

‘’No. Don’t swallow it. Let it drop. You look so fucking hot like that.’’

I don’t understand why he would think that, but I obey. Wanting to please him the best I can. I quickly grew addicted to this. It's exhilarating to notice every sound or movement in his body as I suck him and lick him. Seeing how much I can affect him.

‘’Look at me.’’ He commands.

And once again. I obey. And his expression is something that makes the heat in me rise once again. His feral eyes are devouring the sight of me. I keep staring at him as I take him in. Wanting to see every change in his expression depending on what I do to him.

‘’Sorry Lo, I can’t restrain myself anymore.’’

His fingers sink into my hair, and he suddenly shoves my head down. Making his dick hit the back of my throat with more force. I gag once again. He pulls my head out just to shove it down again. My tears start to rise from his forceful movements. I close my eyes and try to focus, not to gag too much. He keeps fucking my mouth, speeding up the pace.

His groans grow louder, and I feel my pussy clenching with need again. Like I just didn’t come. His violent act just excites me too much. I open my eyes and lift my gaze back to look at him, and something shifts in his eyes. His voice fills the room, and I feel his shaft growing in size before the warm liquid fills my throat. He presses my head down, so all his cum slides straight to my throat. I feel his dick pulsing inside me as I try to swallow every last drop of him.

When he lets go of my hair, I straighten myself, wiping the corner of my mouth from my saliva. Felix keeps breathing heavily, his chest heaving strongly. He looks so freaking hot. I just can’t understand how someone like him would ever pick someone like me. And how my body is already aching for another orgasm. I guess I enjoyed sucking him. Maybe a little too much.

He focuses his gaze back on me, leans in and kisses me. More gently this time.

‘’Thanks Lo.’’ He murmurs against my lips.

‘’For what?’’

‘’Everything. I love you so much.’’

My chest tightens. And I wrap my arms around his neck, deepening our kiss. My body feels so needy. But I try to contain myself. He suddenly smiles against my lips.

‘’It seems like someone is still aching.’’

I halt. How did he know? Was my mind so loud about it? I feel so embarrassed.

‘’It’s not like that. Just ignore my stupid mind.’’

‘’I could never ignore your lewd mind, or your begging body.’’

He pushes me down, my back hitting the mattress. He lifts my right leg against his shoulder, gently kissing my ankle.

‘’I would never leave you aching. I’m a gentleman after all.’’ He says with a smirk while slowly kissing his way toward my pussy.’’

Oh, please forgive me God. This man really drives me crazy. And I really want to be with him. I really do. Even though we don’t have much time left before our doom comes. But I take the little time we have. Perhaps heartbreak is worth being with him. I want to marry him. I want to walk down the aisle with him. I want him.

Until death do us part.