Master of Minds, Master of Me

Relieving myself in the shower eased my ache a little. So I’m convinced that I can handle seeing her without having a boner in an instant. I knock on her balcony door and she comes to open it. She shoots me a glare.

‘’Woah. Why the mood change?’’ I ask teasingly.

‘’You know why! You can’t leave me notes like this.’’

She shoves me the note I left her earlier. I take it and read it.

‘’Are you a shaving blade? Because I wanna put you up against my face.’’ She glares at me even more. I struggle to hold my laughter. ‘’I don’t see your point here. I think it’s rather accurate.’’

‘’You need to stop being so vulgar! Do you have any idea how embarrassing your notes are sometimes? They have put me in extremely awkward situations!’’

‘’Awkward situation? Like what?’’ I honestly don’t know. Since I always leave the notes so that only she can see them.

‘’Like that one time, when you wrote about my legs being wrapped around you. I didn’t understand it at all. So I asked Milna about what it meant.’’

I immediately start to laugh. I can’t believe her sometimes. She really is so pure-minded.

‘’It’s not funny! It was embarrassing! And she kept asking who had said that to me!’’

Well, Milna probably already knows it’s me. She has been reporting to me her activities for so long already, so I’m pretty sure it’s quite obvious to her that I’m interested in my pretty flower. I suppress my amusement, trying to look dead serious.

‘’Sorry. My mistake. That is quite troubling indeed.’’

‘’You don’t sound even a little bit troubled, so don’t try to fake it.’’

‘’Sorry again. But I will absolutely take your feedback seriously. And in the future, I will make sure my notes are more obvious, so there is no misunderstanding.’’

‘’How about not just leaving notes at all?’’

‘’No chance.’’

I scoop her to my arms, and this time she wraps her arms around me voluntarily, and it makes me smile. Her face is still glaring, though. I choose to ignore it and start walking toward the railing and jump down. She is clearly getting used to that, since she doesn’t yelp at this time.

‘’Let me down, Your Highness.’’

‘’Only if you call me Felix.’’

‘’I’m not going to call you that.’’

Her words literally feel like a stab in my chest. It honestly pains me that she doesn’t want to call me by my name. But I act it out, being my playful self as usual.

‘’I really thought that making you come would change your opinion about calling me by my name.’’

She just averts her gaze.

‘’So, how many times do I need to make you come so you would call me Felix? Five? Ten? Hundred?’’

‘’Stop talking about coming! It has nothing to do with that.’’

‘’Oh right. You just don’t want to admit you are close to anyone, right?’’

I still remember her words when we played chess. Even though she answered my questions so easily just to fool me, I know she was speaking the truth.

She just gives me a nod.

‘’Okay. So how many times do I need to make you come to make us close? Five? Ten? Hundred?’’

‘’I said that it’s not about that! Just shut up, Your Highness.’’

I chuckle at her annoyance.

‘’Sorry. It must have slipped my mind. So tell me about your dancing lessons.’’

‘’What about them? I already told you that I was happy that they ended.’’

‘’Who you danced with?’’

She looks at me confused. ‘’Why would you ask that?’’

‘’Just so I know which hands to cut for touching what is mine.’’ I say nonchalantly.

‘’Your Highness! Please tell me you are kidding!’’

I chuckle at her. ‘’Of course I’m kidding.’’

Or at least I hope so. I’m not some lunatic like Theodore who tears people's limbs for fun. But for the first time, the thought of doing exactly that doesn’t seem so bad.

‘’I was just curious, that’s all. Were they better dancing partners than me?’’

She averts her gaze, acting all shy again. And that only serves as an answer, so I can’t help but smile as I wait for her answer.

‘’They were okay.’’

Oh? Trying to escape from answering?

‘’I didn’t ask if they were okay. I asked were they better than me?’’

Her button eyes slowly move to meet mine. And my chest tightens when she looks at me like that. Shyly under her lashes.

‘’No.’’ Her answer is more like a whisper.

‘’Good. Then I can leave their hands alone.’’

‘’You told me that you were kidding!’’ She bursts out.

I just chuckle some more. ‘’I am, I am. Relax. Teasing you is just way too easy.’’

We arrive at our garden, and I let her down.

‘’Okay, pretty flower. Lead the way since I don’t know where you moved the flowers.’’

Her face brightens up and she grabs my hand and starts pulling me. I fucking promise that my heart stopped for at least for five seconds because of that. My pretty flower? Grabbing my hand? Voluntarily? Goddamit I love this woman so much.

‘’Yesterday there were only a couple of buds left, I bet that today they are all blooming.’’ Her voice is soft but excited.

I just keep staring at her smiling face. I’m lost for words. She is way too captivating that I could manage to speak anything right now. Soon we arrive where she planted the Louffers and her smile only brightens more. I’m feeling so happy right now. But there is one sad thought creeping inside me.

Will she ever be that excited to see me? Will I ever be more important to her than flowers? I mean it’s okay if I’m not. I can live with that. I just need her in my life. It doesn’t matter if she doesn’t feel this strongly for me as I feel for her.

‘’I was right! They are so pretty!’’ She crouches on the ground to inspect them closely. ‘’Their scent is so nice too. And the most surprising thing was the color. The buds were all white so of course I thought that the flower would be white. So I was pretty shocked that the pedals were purple inside. They are so stunning.’’

I crouch down next to her. I force myself to move my eyes from her to the flowers in front of me.

‘’I didn’t know they would be purple either. They really are pretty; they fit perfectly here. And it’s all thanks to you.’’

I move my eyes back to her. She still stares at the flower, her fingers gently brushing the purple petals. She looks so pleased and happy. I brush some loose hair behind her ear and she moves her gaze to mine.

‘’But I think you are the stunning one. You outshine every single flower here.’’

Her smile slowly fades away and her cheeks start to color up. I move my hand to her face and slowly slide my thumb over her lower lip. She parts her lips immediately. Such an obedient pretty flower. I lean in to kiss her, since I can’t resist her. Her hands grab my shirt and she kisses me back. Her kissing me is really riling me up. And it doesn’t take long for my illusion mana flowing inside me more potent.

I force her to lie down on the ground and deepen our kiss, making it more demanding. I let my right hand travel against her delicious figure. Which drives me even more insane. Especially since she doesn’t resist me, not even a bit. She just molds herself against me.

But then something catches my attention. Something that doesn’t belong in our garden. I withdraw from the kiss and lift my index finger to my lips, gesturing her to be silent. I focus on our surroundings, I’m sure someone is here. It could of course be a maid or Ted. But there's just some ominous presence so I want to be sure. I focus on finding any minds here, and when I eventually do, it is obvious it doesn’t have good intentions.

Goddammit. Why is the timing always the worst possible? Not now when my pretty flower is present. I don’t want her to witness the unpleasentaries of being a Royal. But I guess there is no choice. I focus again on her. Whispering.

‘’There is someone here. Keep yourself silent and follow me.’’

Her face shows every sign of worry but she nods and obeys me. We get up and I lead her behind some larger trees. I drill to our uninvated guests' mind and create an illusion where I am still on the ground with her. I could of course take her inside the Palace, but by that time the intruder would be already gone. And I can’t be sure if there are more of them somewhere, so I think it’s more safe to keep her closer to me.

‘’Stay here. Promise me you won’t move. No matter what happens. Not until I say so.’’

She gives another nod.

I walk closer where I left my vision and soon I see a man, wearing a dark cloak approaching us with a sword. I stay still and watch him approaching. There really haven't been assassination attempts inside the Palace for so long. How he got in? It shouldn’t be possible. I move myself behind him, just observing. When he reaches my illusion of us he lifts the sword and sinks it in to my back, penetrating me and my pretty flower under me. Just creating an illusion of my pretty flower bleeding makes me furious, I want to rip this man’s throat out for attempting to kill her along with me. And my body moves before I even let it.

I grab his neck from behind, sending my electricity into him. He starts to scream and trash in panic. He somehow manages to escape my grip. That amount of electricity should stun a normal person. So I guess Duke Callum has gotten some more powerful allies. He swings his sword at me. I let the electricity flow to my hand to enhance it, and grab his sword. The sharp edge drills to my skin, but not much. Not enough that I would care. I grab the knife under my belt and slash her throat with it. He backs up, holding his bleeding throat and cursing some nonsense.

He starts to trash with his sword, clearly panic creeping in and taking control of his movements. I should play this smart, to keep him alive for information. But my mind is too consumed from the anger of him killing my pretty flower. I just want to end his life quickly. I create an image of him successfully slashing me down. And when he looks at my dead body pleasingly, I just stab him to the chest. The shock in his eyes is so satisfying to look at. I watch as his life slowly drifts from his gaze as I twist the knife in his heart, and soon his lifeless body drops on the ground.

I take a deep breath, trying to calm the mana inside me. I really should go see Theodore fast. This really is getting out of control. Usually the illusion mana is not triggered this easily. But it’s getting worse everyday. I don’t want to end up doing something I would regret. I crouch down and search the assassins pockets. And find nothing, which is hardly surprising.

‘’Felix? Are you okay?’’

I lift my eyes to my pretty flower. I’m not sure if I’m more shocked by the fact she disobeyed me and came here when I specifically told her not to. Or the fact she called me Felix. But her worried question added to her calling me by my name surely doesn’t help me calm my raging mana inside me. I press my eyes shut. Come on Felix. Relax. Don’t give in. Just breathe and resist it. You are not going to take her. Not now, not here. Not when there is a corpse lying next to us.

Then I feel her hands cupping my cheeks and I open my eyes and see her face way too close to mine.

‘’Felix? Please say you are okay.’’

Oh fuck. That’s it. I can’t take this anymore.

I grab her by the throat and shove her to the ground, climbing on top of her.

‘’I told you not to move, no matter what.’’

‘’I’m sorry. I was just worried.’’

‘’I was not only trying to protect you from him. I tried to protect you from me.’’

Since I knew that fighting with that bastard would most definitely rile me up. And it would be better to cool off before fetching her. But she kind of ruined that plan.

She visibly gulps. I feel her mind shifting and she already is clenching her thighs together. My pretty flower really is a naughty one for getting aroused by this. And the knowledge of that doesn’t help me. Not one bit. My cock is already solid hard, ready to take her. To finally take what I want. All the way in.

I mean, if I’m going to make her my Queen anyways, what’s the harm of fucking her before marriage?