Chapter 267: Conversation
Killian felt his heart flutter hearing his mate’s sweet words. She was so understanding whereas he on the other side kept on bombarding her with his pesky insecurities. He felt inadequate and less worthy to have a mate like her who was wonderfully flawless in his eyes. She was all he could ask for and more. She was the rare treasure he found in his life and would never trade it for something else even if he had to die. He wanted to spend his entire life with her and when his death neared, wanted to take his last breath lying on her lap.
And Lyra could read what was going on in his mind, "Don’t do that!" she exclaimed while flicking his forehead, "Don’t you dare overthink about things that don’t even matter" She didn’t like how he looked so melancholic and forlorn like it was the end of the world. All because of his overthinking.
His brows came together as he rubbed the place where his mate had hit, "It’s not that....I just feel pathetic telling you about my problems that are not even important in the first place"
"You don’t get to decide that" stated Lyra, "I’m the one listening to your problems and I will be the one to decide whether they are worthy or not. Alright?" Why were all of her mates this insecure in some matters? They looked wonderful in their eyes and Lyra wanted them to see what she was seeing. She wanted them to become more confident in themselves. Hence she chose to share her insecurity, "Sometimes I feel less worthy of you guys too" Killian’s eyes went wide as she continued, "I feel like I don’t deserve having such wonderful males by my side. In the world where I lived, having more than one partner was considered a sham. I too felt quite guilty mating with multiple mates and even now have thoughts that I’m doing something bad. But you guys love me and that is what is keeping me sane"
Killian knew that she was struggling with the constant addition of males by her side but didn’t know it was to this level. He rarely talked about her old world to not trigger her longing for that place. However, that felt wrong now. He ought to have talked to her about this way before. Yes, he felt troubled when he saw his soulmate already mated with other males but now that hardly mattered to him. His mate never neglected him due to others and he was actually glad that she had others that were dedicated to protecting and keeping her safe.
"Just like you, I have my insecurities," Lyra said bringing him out of his thoughts. She traced his chiseled jaw with her thumb as she added, "But I don’t feel ashamed sharing this with you. Even with my other mates, I talk about this matter freely and do you know the reason for that?"
Killian slightly shook his head while his mate smiled. She leaned forward planting her forehead against his before uttering, "It’s because I love you. There is nothing to be wary of when it comes to you guys. I get to be just as I am, so...my adorable panther, please don’t feel ashamed of sharing your thoughts with me. Be it good or bad, those are your thoughts and I’m always willing to listen to them"
Killian felt himself choke up and had difficulty replying. The only thing he could do was pull his mate toward him and embrace her. He tightened his grip around her soft body as though trying to rub her into his existence. She is his entire existence after all. His lovely mate who deserved the world.
And that thought alone made him fume in anger at that eagle bastard. To his wonderful and lovely mate.....how can that bastard betray her? Then again, he missed the opportunity for spending his entire life with someone this lovable. Nonetheless, he has to punish the one that had disrespected his mate.
So Killian chose to talk this out with his mate as she was involved in this. Pulling back from the hug, he started at her before parting his lips, "I don’t know if this the right time to talk about this matter but I think it is important to hear your stand about this"
Lyra nodded encouraging him to say more and he did, "About Kyrell....." that name alone was enough to make her mood plummet but she decided to hear more, "We cannot let this matter slide, Love. This includes you as well as all of us. What Kyrell did...I mean what his tribe did is something unacceptable. Even if you let this matter go, for now, there will always consequences in the future. The Eagle tribe should have known about this before they committed this blunder"