Chapter 131: Darkness
Killian groggily opened his eyes and stared up at the familiar stone canopy. He tried to move his arm but sensed someone clasping it and turned to his side.
Lyra frowned and opened her eyes when she felt him moving. Relief washed over her seeing Killian’s serene face. She immediately hugged him and buried her face in his chest, "I was so scared...I thought something happend to you"
Killian was surprised by her sudden hug but soon his surprise turned into happiness. Seeing her worry for him made his heartache but also satisfied. He embraced her back and rested his chin on her head, "I’m fine, treasure"
She pulled away from him and looked at him with tear-filled eyes. Her fingers caressed his face gently and Killian closed his eyes as she parted her lips, "Killian?" she called him, and he opened his eyes and looked at her with inquiry in them.
"Do you feel that I don’t love you enough?" This was a difficult topic for both of them to discuss but Lyra thought that it was the most important issue in her relationship with all her mates. No matter how much she tried, her mates were always insecure about themselves. Lyra could comprehend up to some extent because all of them shared some kind of trauma from their past. She made sure to show her affection in both physical and emotional ways but it seemed not enough for her mates.
"Tell me, Killian. You have to share your worries for me to understand" She gently urged him to open up about his concerns.
Killian bent his head and did not dare to look at her eyes. He was feeling ashamed about himself for putting his beloved in such a position. She tried her best to love him but his petty jealousy got the best out of him. He also remembered Kenna’s previous words and deduced that someone was controlling him because he was not strong enough mentally and emotionally. He couldn’t help it, Lyra is his sore spot, and anything related to her made him vulnerable and helpless.
He was still lost in his thoughts when he felt soft lips on his eyes.
Lyra sighed when he remained silent. She did not want to force him, Lyra was ready to hear him out when he was comfortable. Leaning forward, she gently kissed his eyes, followed by the tip of his nose and lips, "Don’t talk if you are not ready" he looked up at her and she smiled, "I’m always here for you, we can discuss this some other time"
Killian’s heart was filled with warmth and love. She was everything he could ask for but because of his stupid insecurity, he was almost going to hurt her feelings, "I’m sorry...I really am"
Lyra cupped his face and pecked his lips, "I understand...I forgive you" Avoiding his apology was not an option and she understood it. He was earnestly asking forgiveness and she has to accept it for him to move on from his guilt.