Chapter 117: In A Jam
Derek did not know what it was about Emily Molson, and facing her that made him want to run away from his problems. But he did not like it at all. He was not a coward and all of this constant dodging around the topic that he usually would be able to just face and get over with, was really bothering him. Cowardice, just did not suit him. How did perpetual cowards who had no spine to speak of, live with themselves? If this state continued, Derek was not sure he would be able to stomach being in his own presence.
If he could have, he would have booked a flight to get away from himself.
But even as he thought that, he was already doing something that just screamed cowardly. When he had left to go to work early in the morning. He had made a promise to himself. A simple pact that when he went to see Emily that night he would instantly jump to the heart of the matter, and apologize to her. Explaining his actions and letting her know that he was alright with whatever punishment she saw him as being worthy of. Even if it meant that she never talked to him again or even if she demanded that he run through the streets naked yelling out his apology. Or if she wanted half his fortune, Derek would do anything. Okay the last one would be more of a problem. Not with him, but with all of the stuff it would entail.
There would be all of the attorneys to consider, and his mother and uncle(he would no doubt make it his business. So maybe the money thing would be more trouble than it was worth, but still the point stood Derek was willing to pay for what he had done. The moment he walked through the diner door he would handle it.
That was what he had told himself, and that should have been what he was thinking about.
But somehow during the cause of the day while he had been attending meetings reprimanding a whole army of personal assistants, and generally just trying to get himself to be a functioning human being who could pull off his job perfectly. Derek’s mind had come up with terms of its own. Wriggling out of the agreement that he had made with himself, through a loophole that he had not even noticed was there.
Why did he have to be so good at spotting weakness?!
Derek had promised himself that the moment he walked through the diner doors he was going to fix things with Emily. But it seemed his mind, still fearful of the outcome had found a way out.
And its solution was to not walk through the diner doors at all. After days of keeping tradition, and going to the diner every night, he had decided that he was not going. Instead, he would be staying late at work, and then he would be heading straight to the penthouse where he would swim until he could not anymore. Then he would go downstairs to his room, lay down and do absolutely nothing. It would be a very boring evening, but he would not be going to the diner to apologize to Emily.