Chapter 116: Spell On You
The moment that Derek Haven had walked out the door, whatever spell it was that he wove over Emily with his mere presence shattered into a million pieces. And with the magic gone, Emily was seething. What was she? A teenage girl! Just how many times would the man have to step on her for her to be able to stand up for herself.
Why on earth had she spent all of that time hyping herself up, and telling herself that she would be doing the right thing by finally confronting Derek about what he had done. Why did she take so much time obsessing over something and then when the moment came for her to do what needed to be done. She had just frozen.
No, freezing was not even the right word. She could not call what she did whenever she saw Derek freezing. Freezing meant inactivity. It meant that the brain was no longer able to function. That you could not move a single muscle, no matter what you did. But when Derek was around, Emily could move. She could think, she had free will. What she chose to do with that free will however, was very embarrassing.
When Derek was not around Emily was very sure of herself. She knew what she was going to do, and how she was going to do it. She needed answers and she needed an apology from him. That was it, plane and simple. But the moment she laid eyes on him, it was like all of that logic. All of that reason just flew out the window. She just fell into this routine where she wanted to take care of him because he looked sad, or vulnerable, or whatever it happened to be that particular night.
It was getting old and getting old fast. In fact it had never been young to start with. Emily was sick and tired of it, but how to break the cycle she had no idea.
The way that she was behaving was an embarrassment not only two herself, but if her mom found out should be embarrassed as well. Hell, even the ladies out in the street who had no idea who she was, would look at her, and pity her if they knew just how weak she got at the sight of her former boss.
It was not right.
She was not some love sick teenager, or a jilted woman who still had feelings for her ex. They had never even been in a romantic relationship.
She should have been able to just come out with it, and tell him...