Chapter 333: pain
Kim’s pov
I kicked a rock so hard, and a sharp pain shot through my foot and I cried out as I reached down and grinned my leg. Pain resonated from my leg and chest at the same time and I leaned against the tree, my entire body suddenly feeling weak to the core. Angry tears stung my eyes in that very moment and I blinked it away in the very next moment. I sniffed angrily and wiped my eyes with the back of my hand.
I couldn’t believe that this was currently happening to me. I couldn’t believe that I was getting teary over a man. A fucking man.
Oh, how low I’ve fallen.
Men used to shed tears for me. Men used to be in tears while begging for a kiss from me. I couldn’t believe that I was the one crying right now, over someone that apparently has someone he has been in love with this whole time.
It made my chest hurt so much that I struggled to breathe, instantly feeling appalled that tests were once again welling in my eyes.
My leg still hurt from locking it against a stone and I leaned down to massage it for a few minutes before rising to my feet. I had chosen to come out here after the dinner I had just existed, because I needed the open air so I could think. I needed it because it felt like I was going crazy.
Roy and San weren’t just dating. They’ve apparently been on and off with each other for a really long while. The fact that I had already fallen for Roy made my chest hurt even more right now because that’s the only reason I’m feeling this heartbroken right now.
I had been worried sick about him these past weeks. Since he suddenly disappeared right before his rut, I had spent each day thinking about him and missing him that I even forced myself to ask Blaze of his whereabouts. I kept hpoing he’d return soon, and I’ve told myself countless times that by the time he does return, I was gonna work past my stupid feelings and confess to him.
I didn’t just like him. This was nothing like a crush. I was actually in love with him: and I planned to tell him that whenever he returns. I also planned to apologize for taking this long and making him feel that he needed to chase me or wait for me. I also even planned to reveal to him that I knew I was difficult but still appreciated that he waited for me till this very moment.
Throughout those moments that I spent harboring those thoughts, I had hoped that he hadn’t kept to his words when he told me he was gonna spend his rut with an omega. But even if he had done that, I was prepared to let it go, I was prepared to accept that he did it because spending one’s rut alone was very hard.