Chapter 231: The visitation ban...
Selene POV
I bit the insides of my mouth trying to fight the tears that settled in my eyelids.
I have to be strong... I can’t be broken... it’ll affect everyone else and that’s a luxury I didn’t have right now.
Xavier’s face paled. Slowly, he reached for my hands, his eyes searching my face. "Tell me the truth, Selene. Tell me not just as Xavier but as the man whom you once loved and the father of your children. I know you much better than you think Noah knows you and I can tell you for free that something is wrong. Please...".
"Xavier!" I sighed looking away trying to remove my hands but he held on firmly
"I care about you, Selene, I still do, regardless of everything else. We are not enemies and I told you I’ll spend the rest of my life making it up to you for all those years when I was stupid. I also care about the baby... because I’m going to be an uncle. I just want to help. Please...".
"And how would you do that?" I snapped with tears glistening in my eyes as I forcefully pulled away from him. "How would you help, Xavier?" I repeated with bitterness creeping into my voice. "You have no right to stand there and tell me that you care when you made it clear in the past that your priorities lie elsewhere,".
He flinched as if struck. "That’s not fair," he said. His voice was low and intense. "I’ve made mistakes, yes. Terrible one but I am trying to change. I’m sorry about not caring for the girls the way you want or require. I’m sorry that I am not like Noah who’s perfect in everything. Who knows how to get you in and out of the mood? I’m sorry, I am not like everyone else..." his eyes reddened.
"But I am trying, Selene. I just wish you could see me. You don’t do that... you always believe the worst of me, not matter how much I prove that I am trying and then you spend the better part of it, comparing me with everyone else. I am trying here... can’t you see? You think it was easy giving you away to my uncle... knowing that he touches you every night, kisses you... feels you... IT SHOULD BE ME!" he yelled. "It should be me... I am your fated mate,".