Chapter 156: He was different from Xavier.
Selene POV
He was different from Xavier.
More brutal, colder and unrepentant. Not that Xavier was none of this but it was worse with Noah because he knew this had become my witness. He knew I had made it my weakness and he was ready to exploit it to the fullest.
"You think because I didn’t profess my love for you that I never loved you?"
"Yes!" he retorted, his chest heaving.
"But I made it clear with you from the beginning when you asked me to marry you," I sighed and ran both hands through my hair "I feel like we keep repeating this conversation over and over again but I’m going to make it clear one last time, Noah. You came to me with a narrative in your head..."
"A narrative?’ he looked at me puzzled what are you talking about?"
"You came to me thinking I was so love depraved and me falling in love with you will happen faster than you snap your fingers when in reality love is a decision, commitment is a decision... you don’t commit or love someone because you think they’ll remain a particular way for you... or because you think you’ll never find anyone better... No, Noah! You commit, you love someone because you feel it in your bones that you want to remain with the person and you’re determined to go all in sex or not! But guess what... you’ve made what you feel for me conditional...,".
"That’s not true, Selene..." he shifted his weight "I fell in love with you for real and I’ve remained committed so far until now. What nonsense are you talking about? I fucking love you..."
"Is that why you wanted a reward for it?" I fired at him trying to fight the tears that had already gathered at the corner of my eyelids. "So, for loving me and committing to me, you’d have access to my body? Or for loving a single mother, abandoned in the forest, maltreated and cheated on by her mate, you feel that I should be grateful to you and grovel before you all the time?" a tear rolled down my cheek making me smile bitterly as I remembered Kurtis’s words.
"You know, someone once told me that you love someone only for the qualities you think they provide. Perhaps, it was because I was so beneficial to your pack that was why the thought of losing me to Xavier made you marry me and the only reason, you’re with Brooke now is because the sex is amazing for what... 45...55...60 minutes? What a joke!"
"T...That’s not true, Selene..." he shook his head and tried to reach for me but I took a step backwards evading his touch. "I love you because I cannot do without you. I cannot stand that you’re not mine. You complete me, Selene, in every way a woman does and I want you forever. Please...".