Chapter 44: Horrible Mother.
Arissa closed her room door with her right foot before taking weak strides to the bed. Her heart tore and her eyes stung with unshed tears as they opposed her will to not let them pour.
With a deeply depressed drop, she dropped onto the bed sinking her face into the mattress with her back facing the ceiling, and slowly, the tears found themselves out of her eyes.
Her mattress did a good job of socking all of the sad sounds that accompanied her tears.
Family! - that was something she always wanted. A group of persons she can trust while stepping back for them to take the front line of the battle and also, lean on their shoulder when they come back from the battle.
She has Jocelyn but if she was being frank, there is a void still deep and empty.
She does not know why, but the fact that Geal opted about her becoming a mother stung her heart so much and that was the cause of her sudden snap.
She can’t imagine herself going down that phrase of life. Hell no!
She would be a very horrible mother and with that thought, more tears slipped out of her eyes as she dragged her body upward to be more comfortable while letting all of her pain out through her tears.
She has no illustration of a good mother because her mother was no good example and the more her years passed by, the more the fact that she is a lady that would one day need to have kids played in her memory.