Married To A CEO. Omega

JOHN

Ruth called me to meet him today at his office. And my guts are telling me that something will happen to us today and we will never be the same again. It is not like I have never gone to meet him at his office after we started hooking up, it is just that the tone Ruth talked to me with something really unknown to me. Like I don’t even know the man on the other end.

Ruth is one of the brightest persons I have ever met. He has always been very nice to me. Even if we are not dating, he always treated me very nicely. So nicely that sometimes I mistook his behavior as love. And it made me really happy even if it was for even a little while.

I know Ruth will never fall for someone like me. But it didn’t help the thought looping inside my head that, if he treats me like this when we are not even seeing each other then how much will he love the person he loves? It makes me happy and sad at the same time. Thinking that the person Ruth loves will never be me. What do I expect? Someone like me can never be the object of someone’s affection. I should just be grateful that Ruth is treating me this nicely when I don’t even deserve it.

Love is something that I never expect someone to give me. Love is beautiful. So beautiful that it’s blinding. I have seen Erwin and Leo. Their love for each other runs very deep. Deeper than the ocean. The way they look at each other is something many people would sell their soul to get.

I am happy that they love each other. After all, even if I don’t find my happiness at least someone did and that someone is none-other than my best friend. Well, it’s not like I am unhappy right now. I am more than happy to be the side chick of Ruth. But I have this greedy need inside me to be more than that. But I know I shouldn’t be greedy. It brings nothing good.

I am happy to be able to sleep at night, like I always wanted. I have had this insomnia ever since I can remember. This something runs down in my family bloodline. My father suffers for it till to this day. I have visited countless doctors to solve this problem but it was all for naught. And miraculously, one day this blond man barreled inside my life and made me fall asleep in his arms. I can never forget how it feels like to sleep properly. And it’s all thanks to Ruth. He has my gratitude or maybe it’s something more than just this.

Something that I can’t decipher. That is beyond my imagination.

I take a long breath before knocking on the back door. "May I come in?"