Chapter 290: Flashback - 30
Meyer’s POV
His small feats are not even going to hurt me. But I guess he was hurt because of me.
"Why are you saying all this? Why... You are a baddie... I hate you, I hate you so much... sob"
It’s not like I can’t understand how he is feeling. I can understand. But I don’t want my emotions to ruin him. Still, I can’t see him crying. I push his head to me and hugged him. He was crying on my shoulder.
All I can do is comfort him, so he won’t catch a cold from crying. But while comforting him, my eyes also became teary. Because I am imagining that one day will come on which I won’t be able to see Orian’s face anymore. He will only remain in my memory, just in my memory. Just thinking about it makes me want to cry.
"I can’t live without you, Meyer. I can’t. If you’re talking like this, then I will kill myself. Rather than live without you."
"How can you talk about killing yourself so easily, Orian? Don’t you know how I would feel once you died? I will be a living corpse. Then I will also kill myself. Because I also can’t live without you. But have you ever thought, if you died, what will happen to your father, your brother, and the other people who love you?"
Our conversation isn’t going anywhere. This is stopping at the same place. And that place is saying, just be with each other. And I know this is just an illusion. It seems like being with each other would make us happy. But I know this happiness is just for four days. And after that, there will be rain—a heavy rain of sadness.
He was crying like a baby in my arms, and I was also crying. But it’s better to cry now than to cry for a whole life. And I’m ready to face the consequences of my actions. That’s why I smiled and hugged him one last time, very tightly. With this feeling of warmth from him, I will remember my whole life. My love, my Orian.