Chapter 135
- HAZEL -
I’m angry. Seeing her here all relaxed and comfortable with that smile I want to scrape off her face with a knife infuriates every bone in my body.
Knowing she never told me her name and knew Killian this whole time irritates me to the bone. Him not mentioning a single word about her to me even when he met her the first time I made an introduction pisses me off.
I just want to rip both their skins off but I can’t.
How could he let me bond with the one woman he bonded with during his childhood and not say a word about it to me?! The thought is sickening and I feel like a fool.
I feel played. My mind is thinking of every possible time they met secretly without my knowledge and every possible thing they did.
I’m big on trust. A man I was in a romantic relationship with has broken my heart before while sleeping with one of my close friends so I had hoped Killian was different. A painful lump forms in my throat and I try to forcefully swallow it.
I still hope he is different. My chest feels so heavy that I think I’m going to collapse on this floor right now but I can’t afford to.
I can’t afford to think of so many hurtful things he could’ve done with this woman while he was with me. Or while he was with Kate.
They’re in an open relationship and my connection with him is wrong in so many ways so why did I think for a second that my bond with him was not just as non exclusive as hers?
I don’t want to think about these things. I’m choosing to look at the bright side of things. I’m searching for the bright side and none of them are blaring at my face.