Chapter 887 - 016 Belated Repentance_7
As a child, North Star’s closest person, other than himself, was his Mama Luo. Vanessa Taylor would come to their home whenever she had time to take care of North Star. Back then, North Star would tell everyone that he had two moms.
At that time, Vanessa was deeply moved when she heard North Star say this, as she was a person rich in emotion.
Ellie Wilton understood Vanessa’s feelings toward North Star. Losing North Star brought pain not only to her but also to Vanessa, which was no less than her own.
However, at that time, she only considered her own feelings and failed to care for Vanessa. Looking back now, she deeply regretted it. If only she had known, she should have found Vanessa and taken her abroad with her.
The two sisters together at least could have healed each other’s heartaches. Vanessa probably wouldn’t have ended up in such a state, as no matter how long it takes, there’s always a day when wounds can be healed.
"No, no, no, I can’t stop thinking about it. I have nightmares every day, dreaming of North Star, dreaming of so many children in the orphanage..." Vanessa shook her head. Ellie had no idea that she dreamt every night of those children coming to her in contorted faces, calling out ’Mama Luo, Mama Luo’, expressing how much pain they were in.
Since the fire, she’d had such dreams almost every night, these nightmares haunted her like a demon, especially North Star, who clung to her legs, crying, ’Mom, it hurts so much, it’s so hot, so hot...’
Then, she would hug her pillow and weep, continuously calling out North Star’s name, "North Star, I’m sorry, Mom didn’t mean it, Mom had her reasons."
Reflecting on it now, the reasons back then weren’t enough to make her commit such a conscienceless act, hurting so many children. She must have been out of her mind to agree to Hannah Browman’s proposition.
"It wasn’t your fault. Didn’t something happen at home? Uncle Luo passed away then, right? It wasn’t deliberate. Don’t take the blame upon yourself. It was just an accident caused by the aging electrical wiring." Not only the orphanage but now also the schools, any place with a lot of children, safety inspections and repairs are very thorough, unlike in the past.
"It wasn’t an accident, not an accident, it was deliberate, Anna, that fire was deliberate. I was an accomplice; I knew when she was going to set the fire, but I didn’t stop it; I even..." Vanessa suddenly couldn’t continue speaking. At the last moment, she had decided to go back, but it was too late. North Star and those precious children were all gone, gone.