Chapter 2032: Falling Out (Part 3)
So he can easily accept intimate scenes with other girls, and since Yang Tao also studied directing, she naturally understands this. She is also trying hard to persuade herself to differentiate between on-screen and off-screen.
But... it’s really a bit difficult.
When Ruan Lei entered the film academy in his first year, there were teachers recommending him for bit parts. During those times, he usually only had a few lines or scenes. At that time, she genuinely felt happy for him and prayed every day that he could get more roles.
However, as he gradually became more well-known and started getting more significant roles, especially when there were intimate scenes, her mindset began to change.
She still remembers when Ruan Lei first got the role of a third male lead, who was the childhood friend of the female lead. When they were seventeen or eighteen, they had a scene where they were supposed to kiss under the crabapple flowers. She was on set then, watching them perform the scene, and to her surprise, she hoped Ruan Lei would mess it up!
She was taken aback by her own reaction at the time.
Afterward, she worked on her mindset a lot, but by the second time, this feeling didn’t lessen; instead, it became more intense.
This mindset also led to a sense of guilt.
It was around that time that she picked up smoking, and it only became more severe as Ruan Lei’s success grew.
Later, it directly developed into a struggle every time Ruan Lei took on such roles. She would agonize over it, sometimes staying up all night, smoking as she tried to think it through. But no matter how much she suffered, in the end, she could always hold it together.
But the last time, Ruan Lei took on a role that was a bit too revealing, causing her already fragile mental defense to completely collapse.