Chapter 2031: Falling Out (Part 2)
So he can easily accept intimate scenes with other girls. Yang Tao herself also studied directing, so she naturally understands this. She is also trying her best to persuade herself to accept it, to separate work from personal life.
But... it’s really quite difficult.
When Ruan Lei started his first year at the film academy, a teacher introduced him to extra roles. As an extra, he only had a few lines and shots. At that time, she genuinely felt happy for him and prayed every day for him to get more roles.
But as he gradually gained fame and the roles he received became more significant, especially when there were any intimate scenes involved, her mindset began to change.
She still remembers the first time Ruan Lei took on a third male lead role. That character was the childhood sweetheart of the female lead. The two were about seventeen or eighteen under a crabapple tree, about to kiss. She was on set, watching them perform that scene, and her reaction was actually hoping Ruan Lei would mess it up!
She was quite startled by herself back then.
Afterwards, she did a lot of psychological work on herself, but by the second time, this mindset not only didn’t ease but worsened.
And along with this mindset came a sense of guilt.
Her smoking addiction started then, and as Ruan Lei’s success grew, so did her habit.
Later on, it developed into a situation where every time Ruan Lei got a role with such scenes, she would go through a struggle, sometimes even staying up all night, thinking it over to resolve her feelings with smoking. But no matter how much she agonized, she always managed to stay composed in the end.
But the last time, Ruan Lei took on a part with quite a bit of intimacy, and her already fragile psychological defenses completely collapsed.