Chapter 94- Seeking Answers
It was really hard trying to concentrate on myself and at what I was doing. After hearing the rumour or whatever it was and didn’t care if it was the truth or not my heart kept hammering. But I had watched the news about the gala or was it just something to push the mind and ears of the people away.
If that was the case then why and how did the secrets of Damon been sick spread so quickly and who had leaked it? Perhaps someone mean and waiting to see him down and maybe someone who had hated him with so much passion and maybe someone that wants to overthrow him.
It was really hard for me to think stranger, I wasn’t supposed to be thinking about Damon in the first place considering what he did to me and our son and made me feel less of myself.
I stood outside and the cold air did nothing to clear my head. My fingers twitched at my sides, itching to do something — just anything — to distract myself from the uneasy weight in my chest. I heaved a sigh as if my thoughts would go to him wherever he was and asked him what was going on.
It’s been years since I last saw him and I wondered if he was thinking about me same way I was thinking about him now, worrying my head over him.
I couldn’t stay here, I needed somewhere quiet to clear my head. I felt like breaking and I felt everything around me breaking too.
I thought of Damon of our son London, what might happen to him if his father whom he hadn’t seen for a long time pass away.
It was too difficult for me to think about.
Without a another thought, I unfastened my apron, stuffed it into my locker inside the café, and seized my jacket. My shift was nearly over anyway — no one would be bothered if I left a little early or not, I guess the rumour or whatever it is had kept them so busy.
The streets was so awfully quiet and it stretched out before me, bathed in the soft gleam of streetlights. The night was alive with distant auto cornucopias, the chatter of late- night diners, and the occasional light sound of the leaves in the wind.
I didn’t know where I was going. I just walked.