Chapter 242: Fear of Not Being Good Enough
"I see. That it is indeed quite troublesome. Did you tell him we were never too intimate? He might be misunderstanding things. My wife misunderstood so she was rather stiff and nervous every time at first. She was too pressured to be like you or beat you since I might compare. She feared she would not be good enough. I had to clarify nothing ever happened between us before she was finally able to relax and stop thinking I might be comparing," Andrew said and Arabella blinked twice.
’Ferdinand was like this too. He’s insecure and worried about everything. I already told him I never went all the way with Andrew but he was still worried.’
[I was immensely relieved she did not consummate with this man since I indeed feared being compared to him. She once loved him and possibly still does a bit so I would lose right from the start no matter what I did. And how can I not worry when she has this smooth-tongued man for a former lover? Look at him talk. He perfectly knows his way around women just like Raymond does. I am truly glad they never slept together since she wouldn’t be able to compare. But what if she would sometimes wonder what it would have been like if she had been intimate with this man instead of me?]
’It seems my husband is even more of a worry-wart than Andrew’s wife. The way he overthinks is on another level.’
Ferdinand was worried about ’what ifs’ that had not even happened. But she wouldn’t wonder about sleeping with a man she was not even interested in anymore.
In her past life, she did wonder if she would have felt the same way she did with Ferdinand if she had consummated with Andrew. But that was when she still had remaining feelings for Andrew.
And it was because her first time with Ferdinand was painful. But once her feelings were for Ferdinand, she didn’t think much about Andrew anymore. Until she realized all she thought about was her husband and that she was already in love with him, no longer with Andrew.
However, Arabella understood Ferdinand’s worries since he didn’t know that her former relationship with Andrew was more than two decades ago for her.
"Your husband looks like the possessive type so he must be worried about it. Possessive men are quite troublesome," Andrew added. "But then again, most men are. However, are you sure he isn’t too much?"