Chapter 96: What My Heart Bear For You {2}
Have you ever been in a state of overwhelming stupefaction to the point you cannot speak? A frosty action that not only numbs your body but your voice too? This shock is not of fear but a state in which you feel you’re in a dream but it’s real as day.
A man I thought a moment ago might not love me as much as I do and regard me less... but it was the very opposite. Even though William did not say those three words it’s like what he said to me exceeds something as feeble as that, making those mere three words meaningless in a matter of seconds. Transforming it into something more extraordinary, saying his entirety in a way that a mere three words were not enough.
Only William Basker Darkmore can do something like that, cause me to go numb and utterly wordless when what I wanted to say at that moment was ’Yes’
But here I am in my chambers, my back against the headboard and my knees to my chest. I got so frozen to the point I cannot even form words, and he told me he would wait for my answer.
He gave me time
I darted my eyes to the window, watching the night scene from this angle. He gave me time to give my answer, he wants me to think about it thoroughly, that is how much he meant every word he said.
Time to think?
I almost laughed at myself... I was the exact same person who mentally told myself I love him, not that I don’t mean it I really do, but this was enough to test how certain I’m to that commitment, to bear your entire self to someone, forever. This wasn’t about second thoughts, this was about being sure of myself.
I want to love him
I want to be by his side
In Sickness and In Health