Chapter 95: What My Heart Bear For You {1}
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I came back to the library exhausted from playing with Sophia, she was nifty and energetic but I wasn’t, as much as I wanted to play with her all she wants I needed to catch my breath, and my body still needed not to be driven by something intense or else it would get me quivering too much.
On my way back I spotted William staring at a shelf lost in thoughts. A peculiar position I have never seen him in, whenever he was in the library he was always engaged with something... but just standing there almost like he would freeze the shelf itself into a box of ice with his mere gaze, got me worried.
My features instantly turned into concern, he looked so zoned out that I didn’t come close, so instead I stood behind a shelf observing... most especially checking if his eyes were void again but they were their usual crystal green color and I sighed in relief.
Suddenly a smile stretched on his lips and I tensed when he turned his attention to me. Once again it felt like I was lost in time staring into his eyes. Even as we talked I couldn’t look away other than him, he was just too captivating and I was in love with him.
"In all my life Ava I have never cared for someone, I only cared about the benefit, and uses, nothing measured except that"
The moment he uttered such words I felt a deep tug in my heart and the chances of telling him how I felt suddenly ran slim... He probably doesn’t feel the same way as I do because he was a godly man assigned to care for nothing but the library and its well-being and not take anything else as important. The people around him were only good for his use.
I was only good for my use, and nothing more.
"You care only for my use," I said in a heavy tone, it hurts so much to speak now and I couldn’t even meet his eyes because I was afraid of what I might see... I would see a man who doesn’t love me and regards me less.