Chapter 260: Confessions
"N-No, no!" I shook my head. "D-Don’t say this right now please... not when I just found you" I held his hand against my cheek watching him with teary eyes. "I was lost Dace" I began in a more heartbroken tone. it felt like my chest was being squeezed by an invisible hand as I continued...
"Even though I was in a coma all I thought about was you, I wanted to get up from that bed so badly but I couldn’t, i-it broke me" I couldn’t stop the tears anymore, they set loose as well as my longing and the days I endured without him, it was just too much to contain, he was here right now but yet I was scared, scared he would go away to a place I wouldn’t see him again, and that will shatter me, I don’t think I can bear anymore separation from him again, it will kill me.
Both our families never truly accepted our relationship and the reality of being apart from him was just too much to wield. As far as I was concerned I didn’t want to... if it was just possible to glue him to my side I wouldn’t hesitate.
He used his thumb to wipe my tears away. "It broke me, Emma," I noticed his grip against me tighten again. "It broke me because I couldn’t get to you and..." he sighed, leveling his gaze. "I felt like I was being destroyed inside me, my beast was the only comfort I could find yet I couldn’t reach it, nothing... nothing can ever give me comfort as you have shown me"
He looked afar... and watching him right now in this view I saw just how much lost he was, he looked dull and still drowning in pain, it hurts so much to see him like this... he looked almost broken... almost. And I noticed the cluster of water in his eyes threatening to fall but he seemed to push it aside somehow. He set his dull eyes back on me.
"When I heard what happened Emma, I thought I would lose you forever and that thought alone was enough to kill me and I couldn’t get to you. I shouldn’t have stayed away and-"
I cut him off as I placed our forehead together.
"Please don’t say that, it’s not your fault, please" I squeezed my eyes shut, his pain was mine too and it broke me each time he spoke, so much pain and emotion radiated off him.
I heard him exhale deeply, wrapping his arms around my waist more until there was no space between us anymore. I loved it and I didn’t want him to part from me either, I didn’t mind if we stayed glued to each other like this for as long as it takes. I just needed this closure, the feel of his body pressing against mine with no boundaries whatsoever, or nothing... absolutely nothing to keep us apart right now.
I felt his forehead move, I kept my eyes closed as he gently rubbed his cheeks against mine, a chill ran through me as I bit my bottom lip.