Chapter 204: Even If They Try
DAHLIA POV
Honestly if I stayed on this ship one more time I was going to get really sick. Do not get me wrong, I was grateful for getting to see the outside world again after being cooped up in that prison for so long but I longed to be back on land. In this place there was no difference than being cooped up, I’m always running into almost everyone. It felt like I had no privacy of my own anymore. Anywhere I turned, there was always someone there. Someone checking on me if I’m okay, someone who wants something, or someone who wants to whine about something on the ship.
It was almost like I couldn’t hear myself think. I needed to be able to hear myself think, I needed my own space and I need people to not look at me like I was losing my mind. Ever since Bjorn came into the room to talk, things have gone a little bit different. Reagan wasn’t bothering to even hide the way he was looking at me anymore, he now stares at me and each night he asks if I’m okay.
Nikolai sits with me during breakfast, lunch and dinner and then tell me a couple of jokes, some had to do with our Ivana and Heather which made me laugh a little but then he would always end it with how they miss me and if I ever think about them. Then go ahead to ask what was the first thing I would do if I see them and that included Ivar.
The questions were too much and they suffocated me. I wished he would shut up and I think I might I’ve yelled at him one time so any plans I might have had shouted at him one time to leave me alone. So my plan to get them to think I was normal actually went down the drain. If I was trying to convince everyone that I was doing okay, I failed miserably.
After my outburst, I stayed in my room and didn’t come out. I had food delivered to me thanks to Reagan but I didn’t eat much. He even also stopped coming to check up on me which wasn’t good. To be honest I don’t really know what I want. I wanted him to leave me alone and now that I was sitting in the silence I do not want that anymore. I want him right here, with me!
Gods, I have never been so shattered in soul and mind!
I heard a knock on the door which immediately startled me. I stood up from the bed and ran towards the door. Thinking it was Reagan, I slammed open the door. "Where the hell have you been?"
"Whoa, kid, if I had known you missed me that much I would have been here sooner."
My face returned to it neutral expression when I saw it was Branderson who was standing outside the door instead of Reagan. "Hey Branderson."