Chapter 81: Couple Struggles
DAHLIA POV
I rested my elbows on the window, hands on the cold windowsill as I watched Reagan and his guards prepare to leave. The morning sun shone brightly across the courtyard, the muffled clinking of armor and the occasional whining of horses filled the air. My gaze did not leave Reagan as I continued to watch him, his demeanor as serious as ever, as if the course of the world weighed heavily on his shoulders.
As I continued to stare at him, I couldn’t help but notice how few his guards were compared to the last time he went on a campaign. Maybe this mission wasn’t as serious as the last one! I thought as I leaned on my elbows watching him from a safe distance.
"You know you should be out there you know?" Heather spoke softly from behind me.
A snort was my response. "And for what exactly? Lady Marina and her evil spawns will just find a way to just make things worse for me." I muttered under my breath, "Besides, it’s not like Reagan will care if I was there or not!"
Actually, I know that he wouldn’t care, he told me so himself that he never cared about me and I believed him! The look in his eyes when he told me so yesterday, his harsh words burning in my memory, I wasn’t going to be a fool again by trying to enter a space where no one desired my presence. The lack of interest from Reagan also served like a surgical blade which destroyed all remaining hope I dedicated to.
"You can’t possibly know that." Heather tried again softly.
"Trust me, I know." Came my reply as I continued to stare out the window, watching him hug his mother and ruffling Adrianna’s hair.
Heather stepped closer and towards me, her hands reaching up to part my shoulder. "I don’t think so because what if he is actually hurting just like you are." She whispered before she turned to look at Reagan through the window, "Men like Sir Reagan... they carry their burdens in silence. They think it’s strength, but all it does is push the people they care about further away."