Chapter 91: Making decisions
Seoha’s POV
Taesan lets out a sigh like he’s willing to give in to me, but there’s still so much concern in his dark eyes.
"Get some sleep, Seoha, it’s your omega space speaking now" he says and I get up to prove that I know that I’m asking.
"I really want to do this with you" I insist and he gives another sigh, maybe the hundredth one in this hour.
"Sleep on it, you get tomorrow to yourself, okay and when the day is over, tell me what you want" he negotiates with me and I reluctantly agree, knowing that nothing would change my mind.
"Go on, go to sleep, I’ll wash up and be back" Taesan nudges his chin towards his bed, but I don’t move at first, I don’t want him to leave me again.
I already spent the day without him and I hate it.
"Will you leave me?" I ask in a small voice and he scoffs, "you’ve stolen my ability to do that, omega" he says, pushing me to sit on the bed.
"Now sleep" he orders firmly and I climb into the bed, folding myself into a ball and falling asleep.
I dream of Roh Jaemin performing in the cloth I designed, turning heads and winning hearts with his signature smirk.
The omega man is confidently beautiful on stage and shining brightly in a way I can never shine, but just before my heart would break, I feel tiny hands tugging on my shirt.
’Daddy, let’s go, dad is waiting for us’ Sooin’s sweet voice says and I follow her, stealing glances at Jaemin, but moving on.
Alpha said he wants me.
I wake up to the sound of footsteps and I sit up to find Jisu cleaning the room.
"Wow, you sleep like the dead" she says loudly and I rub my fist against my eyes, trying to wake myself up properly.
"Where’s Taesan?" I ask and she passes a note to me.
Seoha, I didn’t want to wake you. I took Sooin to school, no need to come to work, just spend the day and reconsider your choice.
Junho will be available to take you anywhere you want.
"Really?" I whisper and Jisu tries to peek into the note, "you’re so lucky, who knew boss could be romantic" Jisu says with a dreamy sigh and I hide the note.
"It just..." I mutter.
"Don’t worry, the whole house knows, we saw boss bring you in last night, it was so cute!" she giggles brightly.
Oh.
"You should have seen Choyeon-nim" Jisu adds in a whisper and I blink, I know Choyeon hates me, but I still don’t understand why.
"Seoha?" Junho’s voice calls from outside, accompanied by a knock, "are you ready for the day?" he asks and I give him my response, knowing just where I want to be.
"Yes" I say.
In an hour time, I am standing in front of Minjae’s apartment, staring at Junho and urging him to come in with me.
The unimpressed beta glares at me like he truly hates Minjae.
"Hyung" I whisper, beckoning for him to come closer, but he only gives me a blank stare before turning around and walking away.
"You have two hours" he says loudly without looking back, and with Junho gone, I knock twice on the door.
"Get out, I’m not accepting visitors" Minjae yells.
"Minnie, it’s me" I say and he opens the door immediately.
His scowl changes into a pout, "you, I missed you, do you even care about me anymore?" he asks and hugs me tightly.
"Um...hello Minjae" I say, laughing at his dramatic greeting as I hold him and rub my hand up and down his back.
"Come in" he says and pulls me into the apartment.
The space is spotlessly clean like he has been stress cleaning, he is wearing a cozy oversized white shirt, and his hair is held back with a cute hair band.
"Are you okay?" I ask and he mumbles something, dragging me all the way to his room and into his nest.
The omega throws me on the bed before I have the chance to say anything else.
"Take off your stupid clothes" he orders and I take off my pants and shirt, taking off my scent patch for him too.
I am already used to his demands and antics when he is in a mood...the same way he knows how to cater to me when I’m in a mood.
The omega climbs in and nestles into me, pressing his face into my neck, and holding me tight.
"I’m sorry for being so rude, I just really needed someone...this pregnancy thing is driving me crazy" he says and my omega purrs for him, releasing vanilla pheromones to mix with his.
"I know, I’m sorry you have to do this alone" I whisper and he sniffles, "I don’t want to cry" he says.
"Minnie, it’s just me and you, you can do whatever you want and I’ll be here with you" I say to my best friend and he goes silent for a second.
He sniffles again, the way he does when he’s struggling to share something personal.
"Seungmin came home last night" he says and I hum, encouraging him to talk about it.
"I thought he came to see how I’m doing, but he came to pick his work files" he says angrily, scent souring with every word.
As his scent turns more sour, my scent turns softer, providing comfort for both of us.
"I really hate him right now...my baby is just a month old and-and I just want him to understand...we’ve been together for three good years" Minjae says.
"I know, Minnie" I whisper when he doesn’t say anymore words.
"Maybe he’ll come around, Seungmin is a good guy...he has been friends with us for so long, he can’t just walk out on you like this" I try to advocate for him but Minjae scoffs.
"Let’s not talk about this anymore, I’ll have my pup and I need to be in good state to carry through" he says, moving away slightly to look in my face.
I see the gears turning in his head, see through his plan to change the topic, and I let him.
He deserves nothing but happiness, especially now.
"I love you so much, Seoha" he says and rubs our noses together, "I love you too" I say, noting how his scent slowly eases from sour to something more soothing.
"How are you even here? Did your sex lord set you free?" Minjae asks, trying to lighten his mood and mine.
"Well...about that..." I whisper, moving closer to hide my face and to breathe in the milk of his pup’s scent.
"What about it?" he asks curiously.
"How do you spend the rut with an alpha?" I ask and Minjae sits up so fast that it scares me.
"Shin Seoha? Rut? What?" he asks, practically screaming and I cover my face with my hands.
"You owe me a lot of explanations" he says, pulling my hand off my face and I whine.
"I can’t tell you right now, just- ugh, Minjae-ya" I complain, blushing red as my best friend laughs.
"I’ll tell you everything, trust me, I am your knot expert" he says proudly, smiling with excitement and looking nothing like the sad man I met when I came.
"Minjae, just tell me what I need to know" I say and he grins at me.
"Well...it’s hot, very hot and sexy and goddess, honey..." he starts to chatter and I zone out partially.
My best friend gives me all the lessons, the details, the pain, and the pleasure...and at the end of my visit...
I still want it...I want it all with Taesan.