Chapter 90: You thought—
Seoha’s POV
I stay in Taesan’s office sobbing, watching the sun go down and the day turn dark.
My chest hurts from the way I kept myself folded in his seat, staying in his chair and breathing in his fading scent is the only thing keeping me grounded.
The bag of food I packed for us is resting on the table in front of me and I can only...stare.
I can hear the noise of people going about their day, but I don’t move, not even when my phone starts to ring.
The noise in the building slowly dies out and the guard who let me stay eventually opens the door and peeks in.
"Seoha-ssi, it’s time to leave, the building is closing" he says and I nod my head but don’t move.
I really don’t want to leave, if I move, I won’t have Taesan’s scent anymore.
The thought of losing the alpha’s scent makes my omega protest with a whine, and I slump even further into the seat.
"Should I ask someone to get you?" the kind man asks and I shake my head in refusal like a petulant toddler.
The man finally sighs and leaves me alone.
And once the door clicks shut, a shudder rocks my body as another round of sobs leaves me.
I’m feeling too much at once, and it’s starting to feel like when my mother explained why dad never came around.
’Baby, your dad wasn’t ready to have a kid, but I wanted you...I’m sorry for bringing you to this world’ mom’s soft words comes to memory and I sob harder.
’Look, baby, I’m doing you a favor. You’re a pretty omega but it won’t get you anywhere, just stick with me, okay?’ Daeshin once said to me.
Maybe I’m born to be left alone...the unlucky omega.
I sniffle tiredly, already exhausted from crying so hard and finally drifting into sleep.
I don’t know if it’s a dream, but the office door opens and I am carried out of the chair bridal style, the person holds me against their sturdy body and I growl weakly.
The arms holding me feels familiar, but the lack of scent feels wrong...I don’t want them.
"Don’t want you" I protest in my sleep but my whines and whimpers of protests are ignored by the person.
"Shut up, omega" that familiar voice says and I relax immediately into him, not caring that he sounds angry.
He’s here in my dream.
"Open the door" Taesan’s deep voice says and I start to sob again, needing him...missing him even more.
This is not a dream, my alpha came for me.
The alpha gets into the car with me in his laps, and my omega, in the arms of the man we trust, drops into omega space.
"Miss you" I whimper, pushing my nose into his neck to scent him, but I can’t, I can only feels the scent patch blocking his pheromones from me.
"I know, just stay still, we need to talk" the alpha says stiffly, and I shake my head against his neck.
I don’t want to talk, as long as he’s here and not with that man, that’s all I need.
"Don’t leave me" I shudder.
"Fuck, I can’t be mad at you, can I, little thief?" he says in a tone that is softer than what he had addressed me with, and I feel his fingers tightening against my waist.
Home...I am not homeless, I have a home...
Taesan doesn’t say another word, he just lets me sit in his lap, sob against his neck and squeeze his shirt in a desperate attempt to feel him with me.
When we get...home, he carries me out of the car and up the stairs to his own room.
The alpha places me on the bed, takes off my shoes and clothes before putting his own shirt on me.
My chest rumbles with a loud purr as the alpha runs his fingers through my hair.
"Wait a minute, I need to check in on Sooin" he says and I nod.
’Alpha said wait a minute’ my omega says, reminding me that we need to be good, need to please alpha.
"She’s asleep" Taesan says when he returns, startling me out of my thoughts.
"Can you hear me clearly, I need you to be verbal for me, can you do that?" the alpha asks, standing in front of me with his arms folded.
"I can do that" I whisper.
"Good, good omega" he says and my omega whines again.
"Did Daeshin touch you?" he asks coldly and I frown, "I slapped him" I respond and the alpha lets out a sigh of relief.
"Good, I will kill him" he growls lowly and I blink slowly, "but...Jaemin-ssi..." I manage to say and he growls.
"Jaemin? How do you know his name?" he asks, hands coming up to hold my chin, forcing me to look up.
How do I know his name...
The alpha’s touch against my skin dulls my ability to think of my answer, and he presses even harder into my skin, repeating his question.
"I know..." is all I can say.
"Seoha, we have too much to talk about, but I would never give that man a second look" he says and my eyes fill up with tears.
"Thought you didn’t want me" I say with shaky breath.
"Fuck" the alpha curses.
"Thought-"
"You thought wrong, I want you, okay? I fucking want you" he says and I wrap my arms around his waist to hug him, pressing my face into his stomach.
’Alpha wants me’ my omega howls loudly.
Taesan hugs me like that for a few seconds before he places his hand on my head, forcing me back slightly.
I whine my complaint but the alpha gives me a stern look.
"Listen to me, I have to leave for my rut in a day" he informs me and I furrow my brows, remembering that he spent his rut with someone else last time.
"Who will you spend it with?" I dare to ask softly and his eyes soften slightly.
I can see he’s trying to be strict with me...but he’s failing.
"Junho would get me an omega" Taesan says and I grab the edge of his shirt, "I want to do it" I say and he clenches his jaw.
"You’re new to sex, you shouldn’t...fuck, you can’t take an alpha in rut"
"I can...I-I can handle it" I insist with my eyes wide and eager, brimming with tears of jealousy.
No one else should have this.
"Seoha, I would fucking hurt you" he says as he brushes my hair out of my face.
"I don’t care...I like it" I say, tears leaking as I remember the pleasure of his cock splitting me open that first time...it hurt, but it felt good.
I liked it.
"No" he says firmly.
"I can do it, I want to" I plead...I don’t want anyone else on him but me.
My scent flares up, filling the room with sad vanilla and the alpha’s eyes flash red, like he’s forcing himself to keep saying no.
"Please?" I whisper.