Chapter 82: Leg massage, care for you
Taesan’s POV
His little sobs tug on the part of my heart that only exists for the two people I love...my mother and my daughter.
Shit.
Why is he doing this to me? He has stolen my card, stolen my pup, stolen my control...why can’t he just fucking stop at that?
My muscles tense under his touch, small pink hands pressing into me innocently, just holding me.
If we both stay like this, he’ll get cold, I guess my fucking shower has to wait.
I shut off the stream and turn around in his arms, his cloth is soaked through, he’s wearing my shirt, an expensive one I ordered from a foreign brand I like.
That one can be fixed later.
"Come on, let go" I say but he shakes his head, he doesn’t want to let go.
"It’s just for now, let me clean us up" I say and he lets go just enough for me to take off his soaked clothes, the smaller man shudders as his sobs shake his body.
I wrap a towel around my waist and wrap a bigger one around him.
"Is this okay?" I ask and he nods, I cover him up as best as I can with it, and carry him out of the bathroom, holding him princess style till I get to my seat.
The one in front of my blackboard with the picture and list of my targets.
I place him on my lap and hold him to myself...shit, so this is the soothing I needed all along, holding him this way feels like the only sensible thing I have done all day.
The omega cries a bit more, sniffling and whining quietly.
I listen to him cry while thinking of the board behind me, wondering who made my omega cry, and whose image will be joining the pinned images.
No, no need to pin an image, it’s not too late to put on my mask and end them tonight.
Seoha has gone silent and he is fiddling with the edge of his towel, running his finger over it, and his lips are pursed like he’s thinking of something.
"Are you done crying?" I ask him roughly, and as he nods, I clear my throat.
Good.
The omega stays silent for a second before he asks in a small voice, "you smoked?".
"What?" I ask in confusion.
"I told you it’s bad for your health" the skinny man on my legs says and I blink, wondering what goes on in that head of his.
"Does your leg still hurt?" Seoha asks, sitting up with his hand to my chest, and I groan as he gets off me.
Covered in the large towel, he looks focused as he kneels in front of me and touches my leg.
It’s clear that he has no other intent, just care.
I release a defeated sigh and let him massage my leg, his small fingers knead my legs, using the water as lubricant.
It isn’t much, but fuck, it feels relieving.
"When I worked in that daycare, my boss used to need massages a lot, I’ll take care of you from now on" he says to himself, moving to the other leg.
I watch him pay attention to each leg, pressing softly and kneading harder when needed, he’s good at this.
This man has too many good parts to ever be hurt, not by relatives, not by Daeshin, and fuck, not by me.
The whole world owes him a debt.
I lift his chin and make him look at me, his beautiful eyes are red rimmed from crying, and the tip of his nose is pink.
"Why did you cry?" I ask and tears flood his eyes again.
My little deer.
I remember insulting him that first night for crying...but now, I just want to kiss it all away and bury my sword in everyone involved in upsetting him.
"Come here" I say and pull him up again, I like him in my lap.
Keeping him here feels like I own him, like I can do whatever I want with him and no one would blink, because he’s mine to own.
He settles on my lap and I tap his thigh, giving him the go ahead to answer my question, "why did you cry?"
"Why does everyone look away from you?" Seoha asks and pauses, he looks like he’s being cautious, testing the waters to know what will make me snap at him.
My alpha growls deeply and releases our scent, the comforting smell of rain and the rumble in my chest doesn’t scare him off, it gives him the courage to continue.
"You carry so much and...others help so little" he continues and I bring him close, pressing my nose into his scent gland, he smells disturbed.
"They look away because this is what I’m born into" I answer his question and he shivers, getting cold.
My nose brush over his scent gland and his scent changes slightly, turning into something more relaxed, and something more soft.
"I want to know you, I want to be there..." Seoha says and I chuckle lightly.
Sentiment, emotions, compassion...it never gets anyone anywhere in my world, a man must be willing to go cold if he will survive.
"I want to be here with you, let me..."
"I can’t do that" I cut him off before he would say more, before he will have hope in me, he’s playing a dangerous game by requesting this from me.
"Baby, I can’t do that to you" I sigh.
"You will" Seoha says too strongly and the tone makes me growl, warning him and reminding him of his place.
The man whimpers and bares his neck to me, the apology of an omega.
"Go on" I say, granting him permission and he takes a deep breath before continuing.
"You-You will have to...because I’m not going anywhere" he says and hugs me, he hides his face in my neck and starts to cry again.
Huh.
Calling him stupid must be the most correct thing I have ever said of him. He’s so stupid...so beautiful...so innocent.
"Look at you, defying me" I say, rubbing my hand up his back, feeling the knobs of his spine underneath the towel.
"I don’t want to defy you, I just want to be yours" he murmurs into my neck and I smile, I don’t smile this way, but I do.
"Fine then, welcome to my world, omega. Let’s get you dressed and back in bed" I say and he shakes his head.
"Sooin would accuse me of stealing you again" I say, hoping to lighten his mood, and it works.
The omega puts on another shirt of mine and we lie on the bed with Sooin in the middle.
’Captain Kang Taesan...you are fucked’ I say to myself, falling asleep to the smell of vanilla.
Tomorrow is another day...