Chapter 128
Ye jun
I sat there on the cold bathroom floor with my back against the wall, legs all stretched out like I did not even own them anymore. Tears kept rolling down my face even though I tried to wipe them away fast. Titi crouched right in front of me, her hands on my knees, squeezing a little too hard like she thought I might float away if she let go.
"Hey, breathe with me, yeah?" she said, her voice going all soft but still bossy. "In through your nose, out through your mouth. Come on, do not make me slap you again."
I tried but it came out all shaky and wet. "I cannot. Everything is spinning. Titi, what the hell am I going to do?"
She pulled me up by my arms until I was standing, even though my knees felt like jelly. Then she grabbed a cup from the sink, filled it with water, and pushed it into my hands. "Drink this. Small sips. You look like you are about to throw up and I do not want to clean that up."
I took a sip and it tasted like nothing. She watched me the whole time, then suddenly stepped in and hugged me tight, her chin on my shoulder. I buried my face in her hoodie and just cried harder. She rubbed my back in circles, not saying anything for a minute, which was weird for Titi because she always had something to say.
When I finally pulled back, my eyes were all puffy and snot was everywhere. She grabbed some toilet paper and wiped my face like I was a little kid. "There. You done leaking yet?"
I laughed but it sounded more like a sob. "Shut up."
She grinned a little, but her eyes looked worried. "Good, at least you can still tell me to shut up. Now come here."
We moved over to the counter together. She lined up all five tests like they were pieces of evidence in some detective show. Two negatives, three positives, all staring back at us with those stupid pink lines. She pointed at them one by one.
"Look. This one was probably broken. This one faint. These two? Clear as day. You are pregnant, Ye Jun. Like actually pregnant."
My stomach dropped again. I poked at the bump under my shirt. "How though? I am not even a full omega. Si Woo is not even a full alpha. This should not happen. What if the baby comes out wrong? Like deformed or something because we are both half baked?"
Titi sighed and leaned against the sink. "Stop that. You do not know any of that yet. But okay, real talk time. Do you want to keep it?"
I opened my mouth but nothing came out at first. "I do not know."
"Alright. Tell Si Woo?"
"I do not know."
"Tell your parents?"
"I do not know, Titi."
"Abortion?"
"I do not know!"
"Adoption?"
"I do not know okay? Stop asking me!" My voice cracked and I slammed my hand on the counter. The tests jumped a little.
She held up her hands. "Fine, fine. I am just trying to help you think straight. You cannot float around in maybe land forever."
Before I could answer, a wave of nausea hit me hard. I bent over the sink fast, gagging even though nothing came up. Titi rubbed my back again. "See? Your body already knows what is up even if your brain does not."
I spat into the sink and rinsed my mouth. "This is so messed up. I feel like I am in a bad dream and I cannot wake up."
Titi stayed quiet for a second, then she said, "You have to tell Si Woo today. Before you chicken out and hide in your room for the next nine months or whatever. Rip the bandaid off. He helped make this mess, he can deal with it too."
I wiped my mouth with the back of my hand. "He has been avoiding me since that fight. What if he flips out?"
"Then he flips out. At least you will know where he stands." She checked her phone. "Look, I have to go before your parents come back. But I am staying on call the whole time. Text me every five minutes if you need to. Or call. Or scream into the phone. Whatever."
She gave me one more quick hug, grabbed her bag, and headed for the door. "Do not do anything stupid like google horror stories. And drink more water. You look like death."
"Love you too," I muttered as she left.
The house felt too quiet after she was gone. I cleaned up the tests, wrapped them in toilet paper, and stuffed them deep in the bin. Then I went to my room and just lay on the bed staring at the ceiling. My hand kept drifting to the bump. It felt warmer than the rest of me or maybe I was imagining it. Every time I thought about telling Si Woo my heart started racing again.
Hours crawled by. I heard the front door open a couple times when Mum and Dad got home but I stayed in my room pretending to be asleep. They did not bother me much, just Mum poking her head in to say dinner was ready if I wanted any. I said no thanks and rolled over.
Finally, when it was getting dark, I heard Si Woo come in. His voice carried down the hall, laughing at something. My stomach twisted. This was it. Titi had texted me like ten times already asking if I had done it yet. I typed back "about to" with shaky fingers and stood up.
I walked down the hall to his room before I could talk myself out of it. The door was cracked open. I could hear him on a loud call, his voice all casual like nothing in the world was wrong.
"Yeah man, she told me last night. Said it is mine for sure."
His friend’s voice came through the speaker, sounding stressed. "Bro what am I supposed to do? We are still working our lives and she is still in school basically."
Si Woo laughed, that short sharp laugh he does when he thinks something is dumb. "Tell her to get rid of it. You are too young for that crap. Plus think about it, our dads already have plans. They want us married off to those rich girls from the other side of town. One kid now and your whole inheritance gets messy. Just abort it and move on. Simple."
My blood went hot then cold. I pushed the door open hard and stepped inside. Si Woo was sitting on his bed with his phone on speaker, feet up on the desk. He looked up at me surprised.
"Man up and take responsibility for your fucking kid!" I yelled straight at the phone. "Do not be a coward about it. She did not get pregnant by herself you know."
The friend on the call went quiet. Si Woo stared at me like I had grown two heads. "Ye Jun what the hell? Why are you yelling in my room? Get out."
I ignored him and kept going at the phone. "Your girl is probably scared out of her mind and you are sitting here telling your mate to ditch the baby like it is nothing. Grow up!"
Si Woo stood up fast, his face going red. "Ye Jun shut up! This has nothing to do with you. Why are you even listening to my calls?"
He grabbed the phone and muted it quick, then turned back to me with his jaw tight. "What is your problem today? You have been acting weird for days and now you burst in here screaming at my friend about his girl? Explain yourself right now because I am this close to losing it."
I stood there breathing hard, my hands shaking at my sides. The words were right there on the tip of my tongue. I am pregnant. With your baby. But they would not come out. Not yet. Not while he was looking at me like I was crazy.
"Why do you care so much about some random girl anyway?" he snapped, stepping closer. "You never even met her."
That was when it hit me. The anger, the fear, everything mixed together until I could not hold it back anymore.
I opened my mouth to finally say it.
But before the words could leave, Si Woo’s phone started ringing again from his friend calling back. He glanced at it, then back at me, eyes narrow and pissed. "Well? I am waiting."
I stood there breathing fast, hands shaking. The words I came to say were right there but they stuck. I am pregnant. With yours.
"Why do you even care about some random girl?" he snapped, stepping closer. "You have never met her."
That pushed me over. All the fear and anger boiled up until I could not hold it.
I opened my mouth.
But right then his phone started ringing again, the friend calling back. Si Woo glanced at it, then glared at me, eyes narrow and angry. "Well? I am waiting for an answer. Why are you acting like this?"