Master of Minds, Master of Me

“Okay, pretty flower. I think we both need some cleaning up. Let's go.”

Felix stands up, still holding me in his arms.

“Put me down first!”

“Why?”

“Felix! I’m naked! You can't carry me around like this!”

“You should know well enough that I can make sure no one sees us. It doesn't matter.”

“It matters to me! It’s awkward.”

“Okay, okay. You win this time.”

He lets me down, and I grab my dress off the floor. But find it completely ruined. That jerk ripped my dress!

“Yeah… Sorry about that. I will buy you a new one. Wear this for now.”

I turn to look at him with a glare. He is holding his jacket for me and smiles so apologetically that I feel my heart soften in an instant.

“You owe me two dresses, since you destroyed the buttons on one back at the church.” I try to say with a hard tone while sliding my hands to his jacket.

He just chuckles, not even a hint of remorse in his tone.

“My apologies. It was very sloppy of me. Maybe I should buy many dresses, just in case.”

“Why?”

“For future dresses that might get ruined.”

I glare at him under my lashes while he buttons the jacket.

“Not funny.”

He furrows his brows, trying to look serious. But fails miserably.

“Of course not. It is indeed a very serious matter.”

He scoops me back into his arms.

“I can walk!”

“You sure? Your legs were shaking.”

I fall silent because he is right. I feel rather exhausted. So I let him carry me. Lucky for me, the halls were empty. Or at least they seemed empty. Of course, it might be Felix's doing. Maybe he just let me see the empty hallways. We enter his room, and he walks straight to the bathroom and fills the bath. I just stare at him.

“Okay, bath is ready, hop in.”

I keep staring at him. Shouldn't he leave? He stares back at me.

“What's wrong? Want me to lift you inside?” He smirks.

“No! I’m waiting for you to leave.”

“Why? I thought I would help you to bathe.”

My cheeks flare red.

“Absolutely not!”

“Why not? I have already seen you naked, so what's the problem?”

“The problem is that I’m not comfortable with it. And I’m still mad at you! So get out.”

He just keeps looking at me, smiling. Almost like he is holding a laugh.

“This is not funny, Felix.”

“I’m sorry, you are just way too cute being defiant like that. But okay, okay, I’ll leave. Want me to call Milna to help you?”

“No!”

Milna would most definitely realize what we just did. It’s way too embarrassing. And I’m more used to bathing alone. Back home, we never have any servants to help us.

He lifts his hands in surrender.

“My bad, stupid question. Sorry. I then just wait outside and wash after you. Take your time and call if you need anything.”

“Just go.”

He exits the room, but right after the door closes and I start to unbutton the jacket, the door opens, and his head appears again.

“Are you absolutely sure you don't want to bathe together? Just checking.”

“Felix!” I burst out.

“Sorry, sorry. I just wanted to be sure. Next time then.”

He closes the door, and I finally get some peace. I wait for a minute before continuing to unbutton the jacket. Just to make sure he isn't coming back anymore. I think it’s better to take a shower first and wash the um… different body fluids off before going to the bath. I grab the shower head and look down, and just stare at my legs, shocked. There is blood on my thighs. I mean, it was expected, but oh God, I hope there isn’t much blood on the throne. Or what about Felix’s clothes?

I want to sink underground and hide. This is so embarrassing. I gather myself and start to wash. And it feels like forever that I feel even remotely clean. Why must everything be so sticky? Is it supposed to be this messy?

I enter the bath and sink under water. The water stings a little bit between my legs. Then I first time actually think what just happened.

Did I really just lose my virginity? To Felix?

This is bad. This is not how things should go. And why did it have to feel so freaking good? He was being violent and rough. That's something I should be scared of. The look in his eyes was pure insanity. And it just got me even more excited.

I’m doomed.

I’m so so doomed.

Please help me God, to survive this. To survive him. If I weren't cursed, or if Felix wouldn't go berserk. I would probably be pretty happy right now. Being with Felix. I’m still not excited about being a Queen. But I think I could learn to live with that. Or not. I don't know. It doesn't matter since I am cursed and Felix's and my destiny is to die.

I do wonder if I could somehow help Felix deal with his mana problem. Even if I end up dying, I want him to live. I’m not super knowledgeable when it comes to magic. Maybe Master Loneflare could tell me more about Felix's condition. Of course, I could just ask Felix about it more. But I have a feeling he would just reassure me, tone it down and say it’s nothing to worry about.

And of course, I could ask about my curse too. He noticed that there was something wrong with me. It would be nice to learn something about curses. There are only two problems.

One. If I ask about my curse, would he keep it a secret? Or would he tell Felix?

Two. He is scary. Could I even have the courage to speak to him?

But this could be a great chance to learn about something new. God is not going to help me now. Not after everything I have done. So maybe I should try some other ways for a change. I'm pretty sure that I'm stuck in this Queen thing anyways. So maybe the best choice is just stay and try my best to learn something new. If I have even a slight change to prevent future from happening, I should do it and not be a coward anymore. Even if things end up the worst way possible, and Felix ends up killing me.

I finish bathing and grab a bathrobe that Felix put out for me. I exit the room and see him sitting by his desk, papers all over.

“I’m ready.”

He lifts his gaze to me and smiles so charmingly that my heart skips a beat. He looks at me so… lovingly?

Then I remember Felix’s love confession. I totally forgot that. I feel my cheek flush.

“What's up with the embarrassed mind?” He says teasingly.

“Stop probing my mind!”

He just chuckles and gets up.

“It’s impossible when your mind is so loud that it filled the room even from the bathroom.”

“Can’t you just turn your magic off?”

“No, not really. You could call it passive magic. I sense minds close to me constantly, without trying.”

“Isn't it exhausting?”

“Sometimes. The barrier around my room and office prevents me from sensing any minds outside the barrier. So if I need a break, I can have it.”

He walks in front of me and gives a kiss on my forehead.

“I take a shower now. It won’t take long.”

I just nod at him, and he disappears behind the door. I dry my hair with a towel for a while and realize I have no clothes in here. The robe is starting to get pretty wet from my hair, so it's pretty chilly. I don't want to get sick.

Maybe Felix has something I could wear just temporarily. Felix's walk-in closet is just a ridiculously huge room. Which should not be surprising, but the amount of clothes is still ridiculous. Everything also looks ridiculously fancy. I grab a white dress shirt, since it's the only thing that looks remotely normal. Luckily, it’s big enough that it covers my ass too.

I return to Felix's room and place the robe to dry on the back of a chair. And then the bathroom door opens, and Felix enters wearing a robe, and rubbing his hair with a towel.

“Done! I hope I didn't make you wait too—”

He freezes when he lifts his head to look at me. I just stare him back.

“Felix? Are you okay?”

“Umm… On second thought, I think I missed a spot.”

He disappears in the bathroom again.

Well that was weird. I hear the shower running again. I go grab the book from the shelf, the same one I read previously here, but didn't get to finish. I go on the couch, place a pillow against the armrest and lean against it, lifting my legs on the couch and start to read.

It takes about ten minutes for Felix to appear from the bathroom again, again rubbing his hair with a towel.

“Okay, I’m all good now. Totally clean and calm. Calm like an ocean.”

I look at him behind the book.

“Calm? Is the mana acting up again?”

He lowers the towel and looks at me with a smile.

And freezes. Again.

“Nope. I can't do this.”

And then he barges back into the bathroom again.

I have no idea what’s wrong with him. Is this just some joke of his? I return to read the book. It takes another ten minutes for him to appear again. This time, he is only wearing a towel around his waist, and he is covering his eyes with his hand.

I just stare at his bare upper body. Just watching it stirs something inside me. I can't take my eyes off it. I feel the heat within me rising.

“Okay. Third time’s the charm, right? But please, Lo. Put the book away.”

Felix talks while still covering his face. Is he mad that I took the book without his permission? I immediately return the book to the shelf. I should feel guilty, but all I can think of is his bare body. Please forgive me God, for being so lewd.

“I-I’m sorry. I just thought that—”

He interrupts me before I finish.

“No, I didn't mean it like that. I thought that seeing you wearing my shirt was the sexiest thing ever. But seeing you wearing my shirt and reading a book about the economy like that? That's just too much to handle. That's like every Crown Prince’s wet dream.”

I look at myself in the mirror, which is right next to a bookshelf. Sexy? But the shirt is just way too big for me. How can that be sexy? I turn to look at Felix, and my cheeks flush again. If something here is sexy, it is definitely him.

“Where is your robe?” I ask.

Since I need him to cover himself, if I want my brain to function properly.

“I was in a hurry to get under the water, so it got soaked.”

“Well could you please put your clothes on? Or dry the robe with your magic or something?”

He is still covering his eyes with his hand, but his grin is on full display.

“Oh? Is my pretty flower getting aroused?” His voice is teasing, and he makes no move to do what I asked.

I grab my robe and walk in front of him and just slam it toward his chest.

“Please just wear something.”

But the heat in my cheeks just multiplies when I’m this close to him. Oh God, how can I be this weak? It’s just a chest. Just a normal man’s chest. Nothing else.

“Fuck Lo. You wearing my shirt and looking at me like that, cheeks all red, embarrassment and lust in your gaze?”

I lift my eyes to look at him, he has removed his hand, and he looks down at me.

“That’s it. It’s literally impossible not to have a boner around you.”

I lower my gaze and see that he is not lying. He grabs me by the shoulders and slams me against the wall. The robe from my hands drops to the floor.

“You make me feel like a teenager who just discovered that masturbation exists.”

“What?”

“If I had known that sex feels so fucking good, I would have fucked you weeks ago.”

“What?”

I can't keep up with him at all.

He leans in closer, and my heart beats faster.

“I’m just saying that if I had known how amazing it feels to sink my cock inside your wet pussy, I wouldn’t have waited this long.”

“But surely you would know how it feels.”

His lips brush my neck, and I lift my hands to his chest. My fingers tingle when they meet his bare skin.

“No, I didn't.” He murmurs against my neck.

“How is that possible? You clearly have some—”

He bites my earlobe, and my words turn into a gasp.

“Well, I’m not a saint like you. I do have experience in some parts, but I have never had sex. It was my rule to wait until marriage.”

I can't believe he was a virgin too. And that I’m the one who took it from him. His hands start to caress my body. Surely he doesn't think we are doing it again? My pussy is still so sore.

“But we are not married.”

“True. It was just impossible not to take you. And I’m not going to marry anyone else than you, Lo. So I don't think it matters.”

Well you have married someone else 28 times. I hate the thought of that.

Wait.

Am I really feeling jealous of his previous wives? It doesn't make sense. Since this Felix hasn’t even touched them. He has no memory of them. But still, I hate to imagine him with those women.

He presses his body against me harder, and I feel his hard dick pressing against me. His lips meet mine, and I sink into him. I try to protest against his lips.

“Felix… We can't, not yet.”

“You should have thought about that before looking like my personal drug.”

His hand shoots to my throat, and in that moment, I know that fighting with him is futile. Since I don’t even want to argue with him anymore. I want him too. Despite the soreness.

But then sudden knocking makes us both freeze.

‘’Your Highness. It’s Milna. I brought Lady Lorelia’s clothes as you requested.’’

Felix leans his forehead against mine, and for a moment, we just look at each other. Then he lets out a heavy exhale and withdraws.

‘’Sure, come in.’’

Milna appears and looks at us, looking way too giddy. And I feel like sinking underground to hide.

But her timing really was perfect. Welcomed distraction.