Chapter 393: Kim and Elin part 2
Elin sighed as she recognized what Kim was trying to do. She wanted to just tell Kim that everything was fine and there wasn't anything to worry about, but he couldn't say that it wouldn't happen again if she did that. As a result, she was wondering if this would be when they're officially no longer together.
In a way, Elin thought it'd be a good thing. That she'd be able to hope that Elysia would be interested. Yet, at the same time, she worried that without Kim, she wouldn't be able to get anyone who would be interested in her, since Elysia might be only interested in her as a possible friend rather than what Elin would like.
Still, that didn't mean that she should just let Kim get a pass on how she had treated her. It felt like it could be the start of a bad cycle, like the endless loop Jonas had helped her figure out how to get out of. As if Kim didn't know what the problem was, then there would be little hope that a repeat performance wouldn't occur.
Though, she wished that she could tell Kim what the problem was, but if she did that, she worried that Kim wouldn't recognize the problem as easily if it came up again another time. Since she wouldn't have realized what she had done at that time anyway without help.
Elin wished she could talk to anyone about this, but if she did, she wasn't sure what to ay about it or that anyone would be willing to actually listen to the problem. As it wasn't one that was easy to relate to as far as Elin was concerned.
However, she couldn't just let Kim go. She wanted to be with her. She even almost started giving her a linear explanation of what she did and when she did it. If she had, then they'd be working through it, but she doubted that it would be as good as if Kim realized what she did on her own. Especially when it came to the likelihood of it happening again. Which is what she wanted most of all.
The fire popped suddenly, pulling Elin out of her thoughts. The sun hadn't gone down far enough yet to have eliminated all light outside of the light from the fire in front of her, but it was getting close.
She could feel her stomach complaining about not having anything in it, but she didn't feel like cooking that night. She knew she had a few options that didn't require her to cook, but those were items she thought of a better to snack on while they moved from one location to another place during the day. Not for a meal at the end of the day.
She figured that Bart had to have gotten a boar by this time, though he couldn't be completely sure. Or even how long it might take them to bring it back, clean it, and start cooking it. All he could be sure of was that her stomach didn't want 'later,' it wanted to get filled right then and there.