Chapter 237
“…I-If you have something more h-honest about it.”
Dullan made the sign of the cross and looked at Catherine. It was a gesture indicating he would not mention this as a servant of God. Though he was still a young priest not yet fully ordained, his gesture was skillful. Dullan swore to God and asked Catherine.
“Are you telling the truth?”
Are you truly saying you will die to protect Carynne?
Dullan looked up at Catherine. Their eyes met. Catherine hesitated for a long moment before speaking.
“The truth is… I’m tired.”
Catherine clenched her fists. Her face showed signs of fatigue. Looking at Dullan, Catherine confessed her true feelings.
“I’m really tired of living. This much is enough. I don’t want to see the end. I don’t even care if Carynne succeeds or not. Now I understand why my mother committed suicide. I’ve prepared this much for my daughter, so I’ve done enough. Haven’t I?”
Her eyes seemed to ask Dullan if it was alright for her to die now. They were not eyes seeking the truth, but rather, eyes seeking agreement.
“As a priest… I cannot recommend s-suicide.”
“I can kill myself just fine enough without your help.”