Chapter 3 Change
Kailen was ecstatic ...This was simply too broken. He stood rooted in the same spot , many thoughts running wild in his mind ..
He remembered how pitiful his life had been since his parents died a few years ago...
He had totally been beaten by depression and hopelessness after his parents had died...
Although he had given up on almost everything in life... There was a glimmer of hope .. What if I were to awaken... Maybe I could find something to live for... Maybe I could defeat this depression.. Maybe I could move on... At least .. with something to cling to... I would not be constantly living in guilt, and having nightmares, constantly reminded that had they not stepped out to visit New York City to get groceries to come and celebrate my birthday, they wouldn't have died ... Maybe with something to cling to, I could stop thinking about the fact that they died because of me...
This had been what was keeping him sane, at least if he were to awaken, it would make some sort of difference in his life...
However, he didn't awaken on his 16th birthday .... Kailen remembered how he felt that day ..
"I felt powerless...and crushed ... But how could I have been so weak minded and pathetic ..And how am I realizing this now... I didn't kill them ... Those diabolic beasts, they killed mum and dad .. and all this while, I have been blaming myself for something I didn't do ... Two years of my life,wasted on self pity, and suicidal thoughts .."
Slump
...Kailen felt like he had gained clarity,as though some weight had been lifted off his mind...