Chapter 81: Be Calm
Although Jamal didn’t know the whole story of all that happened or where the child was yet, but the thought that he had gotten Abigail pregnant and left her all alone in her state with Ryan and Genevieve, broke him.
Abigail sighed deeply as she watched him crumple to the floor, sobbing.
She had guessed he would react this way and that was one of the reasons she had not wanted to tell him yet about it.
He was obviously quite the emotional type. How could a man cry so easily and be so expressive of his feelings? She mused as she placed a hand on his back, "You can’t do this right now, Jamal. You can’t be this way right now. This was the reason I didn’t want to tell you about it," she said softly but Jamal couldn’t hear her.
He couldn’t hear past the heartache and guilt and anger he was feeling. He felt sorry for Abigail, and he was mad at both himself and at Ryan.
When he still didn’t say anything and just kept sobbing she sighed again, "Reacting this way makes me feel like you think I made the wrong decision in having him. You didn’t put me through anything. For two smart people, we were both naive and inexperienced. We both had unprotected sex. And it was my decision to keep the baby. I could have aborted it. Genevieve suggested I do. Even Ryan wanted me to. But I wanted to have the baby. So, there is no reason for you to blame yourself about my having a child for you," She said, thinking that if he still didn’t respond she was just going to slap some sense into him.
Luckily for Jamal, he raised his head this time and looked up into her face since she was still standing above him.
"I wasn’t in the picture. If not having him in your life would have made life easier for you, then maybe you..."
"His existence made life more tolerable," she cut in, "The reason I have a little breathing space now is because he has Josh and he believes I won’t leave because of Josh. Besides, if I hadn’t gotten pregnant, Ryan would have overseen my plastic surgery himself. I love Josh more than life itself. We have the cutest and smartest boy ever, Jamal," she said softly, patting his hair as she spoke, "isn’t that amazing?"