Chapter 466: Looking For Fun
At James’ home, as Caryn headed to bed, she noticed James standing by the window, looking outside. The mild rain had already started.
She knew him well and couldn’t help but ask, "Anything troubling you?"
He kept quiet for a while before replying, his expression and voice solemn and regretful, "Today, when I saw Natalie and Justin, I thought how it would have felt to be by your side when you were having Natalie. I should have been by your side to take care of you... to take care of our child..."
There was a silence between them—a silence for lost things that couldn’t be returned.
"I’m sorry," she said. "I can’t return those days to you."
He finally looked at her. "I’m not blaming you. Just a regret that you had to do it all alone, while I was unaware of your struggles."
"I have indeed kept you deprived of that happiness," she admitted. "But, if I had to go back in time, I would do the same..." Her voice trailed off as the next words were her admission of how much she cared for him. "...I had to keep you away from the dangers I brought with me."
He turned to her and just hugged her. No words were needed, no need to recall the past. "I know. No need to explain anything more."
She hugged him back, though her hands moved a little hesitantly. "You have to make up by looking at your daughter’s kids. I’m too old to give you that happiness again."
"That means if you were any younger, you would have another child with me?" he asked.
Caryn didn’t respond to him, as she knew where he would take things.