Chapter 444 - 12.52
"Because I don’t know when I will fall out of favor. I don’t know when I will leave this Palace of Serene Harmony. Huang Shu, even when that day came when you finally get a good Empress to rule the nation. You can draft me to the border. I will stay true to my promise."
"Huang Shu, I’d rather stay in the garrison with the soldiers rather than getting abandoned in a cold palace."
’Cold Palace...’ Huang Shu’s feet went cold. He was so paranoid that Yunyu might’ve realized what happened and somehow recovered his memory back.
"W—Why would you say that? You know that I love you the most, right? S—Something like a Cold Palace is just out of the question," Huang Shu tried to convince Yunyu as much as he tried to convince himself.
Yunyu had a bitter smile on his face, and he replied, "Call me delusional, but I’ve had this strong feeling, almost like a past life. Where you abandoned me because you’re too busy with yourself and your wives. You threw me away to the Cold Palace, abandoned me, and starved me to death."
"Huang Shu... if that is the end of our love life, then I’d never marry you. So, in the end, if you don’t love me anymore, just put me in the garrison or at the border. Where I will raise your flag, speaking the glory of you as Emperor Xianliang."
"I will defeat all your enemies, conquer the lands for you. And when I die, I will die fighting for my nation’s glory, not as a disgraced Empress. I will do anything for you. Just don’t put me in the Cold Palace."
"This feeling is so strong, Huang Shu. It’s too strong that I could still feel the coldness of winter and the damp bed where I died out of starvation and malnourishment...."
Yunyu’s tears dropped on the book. He bit his lips, so he wouldn’t sob like a little kid.
"Huang Shu, is this really just a strong feeling of mine, or you really did abandon me, threw me away because I was infertile, and you have settled your life with tons of women and ger men..."
Huang Shu panicked. His heart was beating fast, and he hugged Yunyu as tight as he could, "W—Wife, I would never do that! That’s just your dream, your delusion! You know how much I love you, right?"