Chapter 281: Complicated love
She had seen him a couple of times, gazing at other girls he found interest in but because he was afraid of hurting her, he wouldn’t pursue his heart’s desire.
She knew he tried to make it work, he fought against himself so many times but what can the body do when the heart has other plans?
So he stayed in the relationship without loving her and also not betraying or humiliating her by cheating on her.
Beverly thought she was selfish when she didn’t let him go even though she saw he was hurting, she felt she was the only one receiving in this relationship and never giving, only enduring and trying to make him happy.
Although she understood that she was only beating a dead snake, she has no intention of letting go. She just can’t live without Fin, not after all they’d been through.
When he told her he wanted to break up for the third time, she saw he was serious and finally made up her mind to allow him to be with the one he thinks he loves, but it wasn’t to go away literally but to leave the world.
She was already planning to secretly commit suicide in a way that wouldn’t make him blame himself or grieve too much.
She thought that her being alive would cause discomfort to Fin’s new relationship and this idea was borne after watching a love drama that had almost the same story as theirs. Even though the ML left with the FL, he still couldn’t forget his childhood love who became a total mess after he left her.
The pity and guilt he felt for her made his relationship with the FL not smooth sailing and after the childhood love died of cancer, the ML became ill.