Chapter 135: Misunderstanding...?
"Can I not?" She said, almost helplessly. There was a slight hint of fear in her voice, which didn’t go unnoticed by him. The last hypnosis session must have scared her.
Ji Xiehan went forward and hugged her. "It’s okay. You don’t have to go if you don’t want to."
He didn’t know what exactly she felt, but it must be unpleasant. It wasn’t easy to live with the knowledge that everything she had forgotten about herself could be anything. What if it turned out to be something she was not willing to face?
After all, most people had amnesia because of traumatic experiences. And the fact that she kept forgetting even things that happened after she woke up could mean that in her sub-conscience, there was something she was trying to forget.
Because she felt secure, she couldn’t keep it in anymore. "All this while I’ve been wondering who I really am, why my life just doesn’t feel right. It’s as though I’m living just for the sake of it.
Sometimes things happen, and instead of giving me answers, they only make me more curious... but scared at the same time. I’m afraid I may not be able to face the truth once I remember it. What if I was a bad person before?" She felt helpless, remembering that her mother had always seemed uneasy whenever she brought up anything related to regaining her memory.
What if her mother was hiding something from her because she couldn’t face it?
"You don’t have to force yourself to remember anything." Ji Xiehan coaxed. "Only when you are ready to do it, only then will we go for hypnosis."
Of course, there was something both of them were forgetting. Amnesia happened when one least expected, and similarly, they would recover their memory when least expected. And Li Lanni was bound to be shocked by the unforeseen events.
Unaware of this, Li Lanni rested her head against his shoulder, feeling safe. It was a different kind of security from what she felt when Li Yuming hugged her. It was also different from what she felt when Xia Luna and Cheng Yu hugged her... and she liked it. His broad shoulders were the only ones that could provide her this kind of comfort. She wanted to keep hugging him a little more. However, her stomach just had to rumble at that moment.
Ji Xiehan broke the hug, bursting into laughter. "Was that your stomach? Because I swear, I thought I heard thunder."