Chapter 338: Clearing The Air
Kim’s pov
"I did ask him of your whereabouts but he refused to tell me. He instead warned me to let go of you and something else which I can’t remember right now. However, my point is, I cared, okay? I fucking did so don’t you dare accuse me of not ever caring. I mean, it’s my fault for holding back and pushing you away. I’m big enough to admit my shortcomings." I pursed and willed my heart to stop racing fast.
"But at the end of the day, none of this matters, does it? You have a boyfriend and you used me for a rebound, that’s not changing and I truly detest you for that. You’re the first person I ever let in, which is exactly why it hurt this bad." I whispered before turning around and wiping at my cheeks angrily, feeling angry at myself because of these stupid tears.
I didn’t hear Roy come closer till strong hand settled on my shoulders. I stiffened as he turned me around. I wanted to slap him bad, maybe that would reduce the hurt feeling inside me right now. But when I was fully facing him and his eyes were boring into mine, my breath caught in my throat and my breathing slowed down. His hands on my shoulders moved up till he was cupping my face. His touch was soft, like he was carrying something fragile and important. However, the look in his eyes were the complete opposite.
The look in his eyes was so intense and he slowly raked them over every inch of my face, making my breath constantly stumble around in my chest before I exhaled shaking when he stepped even closer.
Why was I still letting him touch me like this? Why wasn’t I shoving him away? I should kick him and shove him till he falls hard and probably crack his skull. But I didn’t end up doing any of that, I felt too weak to do any of that. I felt too weak to even ask him why he was doing this.
"It was all real, Angelo." He finally spoke, voice soft and filled with so many emotions. My heart hammered away against the inside of my chest and goosebumps gathered across my hands as he stepped closer, till I could feel his body heat against mine. I swallowed emptily, feeling tongue tied and at a loss of words. I could only blink up at him as he continued.
"None of it was a lie. Everything was so fucking real with you. I wanted you desperately." He continued and I felt a sharp pang of pain in my chest at the word ’wanted’. But before I could say a thing or finally pull away like I should have since the moment he cupped my cheeks, he continued without missing a beat.
"I still want you, Angelo."