Chapter 244: Letting Go
Kim’s pov
Roy was pocketing his phone when I stepped out as well. His eyes locked with mine but he remained silent, regarding me as I walked towards him till I was leaning against the wall, a few feet away from him.
I could feel his eyes on me, it was burning into my side despite how unbothered I was acting. His gaze has always affected me, and I hated him because of that because something like that had never happened to me before. People’s gazes don’t affect me, they don’t evoke any reaction from me. So, why was he different?
He sometimes looked at me like he knew his gaze affected me, and I hated that so much, which was why I always make sure to treat him like I treat everyone else.
However, a few hours ago I got to witness the most unexpected thing ever happen. Whereby kind, gentle Jules had suddenly gotten magical powers and had ended up killing someone with it. When powers I never imagined someone like him could possess had ended up disrupting the entire garden. I had almost lost my footing countless times, but Roy prevented that from happening more than once.
That was weird. No one had ever looked out for me like that before. Whenever I was in any tense situation, people always looked out for themselves, no one ever remembers to look out for me as well. It was only for a few minutes, whereby the strong wind would have definitely succeeded in slamming me against some of the trees present if it hadn’t been for Roy’s strong hold.
To be fair, I never looked out for anyone either. I only cared about myself, but that was because after my family kicked me out, I realized that I had no one except myself and on enrolling into carnivals, I realized that no one would look out for you except you do it yourself.
When I glanced sideways, Roy’s eyes were on me, and as expected, I felt my heartbeat accelerate at once. His scent was slowly wrapping around me in this proximity, I wanted to hate it, I even wished he didn’t smell good... but he smelled divine and I wanted nothing more than to bury my nose in his scent gland and breathe in deep lungfuls right now, especially since I knew I was dying tonight.
"You aren’t gonna say goodbye to me? Since I’m dying tonight and all." I began, voice drawled and teasing even though I was extremely scared on the inside.
He didn’t find it funny like I had hoped. His forehead creased into a frown as he slowly glanced away. I bit on my bottom lip as I stared down at my feet, feeling extremely tongue tied.
Regret flooded my lungs. If I had known my life was gonna come to this, I wouldn’t have gotten involved into this mess at all. I wasn’t a good person, I’ve abided by all the rules thrown my way by those actually running the fatanity from behind the scenes, I’ve aided them in more than one way, I’ve helped them pimp out some omegas and that makes me sick to my stomach.
I’ve helped them carry out initiations of new members, which was basically a cover because there were secret cameras installed in that large hall. I wasn’t a good person at all, but now I was trying to no longer be selfish for the first time. It was why I turned in my resignation notice to the school a week ago, I didn’t feel comfortable running the fraternity since Nick died. That was like a wake up call which still fills me with regret till today.