Chapter 78: I’m Not Going!
Evelyn rubbed at her chest, the pain intensifying with every passing second. The corner of her mouth attempted to lift into a fake smile as she raised her head. She’d always taught herself to smile to ensure no one knew she was in pain, but right now, she couldn’t even do that.
"Evelyn—"
"I don’t know."
She shook her head.
"I don’t know what I feel, Amber. That is the problem, I don’t."
Amber’s shoulders slumped. "Wait here for me." She left for the bathroom where she turned on the hot shower.
She picked up a towel and dried it before making her way back to the living room where she draped it over Evelyn.
Evelyn relaxed in the warmth. She didn’t move regardless, not even when Amber got onto the sofa right next to her.
She sat with her arms still wrapped around her knees.
"You know, I hadn’t even meant to start all these. I’m the reason he decided to end this, but I hadn’t even meant to. I was just scared. I used to be in control, in so much control that I was afraid of nothing. Then little by little, he started seeping his way under my skin, and by the time I knew it, I started enjoying living with him. I started really enjoying being with him when he’s not there, all I feel is loneliness. I started noticing so many things I didn’t want to, and it scared me... It frightened me, Amber. Do you think I’m in love with him?"
Amber shook his head. "I don’t know if you do, Evelyn. But I think it’s best if you don’t. You’ll only be hurting yourself now."