Chapter 18
I opened my eyes. I didn’t get to sleep the entire night. No matter how I tried, my heart kept beating fast, making me feel the anxiety growing inside me. I kept thinking about his message. Somehow I know he will reject me for sure or why would he even avoid me for so freaking days? I know this is going to happen.
"Ayla, why are you rolling so much?" Yona is still asleep.
"Oh sorry, I don’t feel sleepy. You sleep. I will go to the living room", I said and patted her head so that it wouldn’t disturb her sleep.
I walked downstairs and went straight to the kitchen. I’m craving sweets. My mouth is getting watery even though I’m not hungry.
"Where is chocolate?" I thought and started searching on the shelf.
But I cannot reach the upper shelf. I kept looking everywhere, then I found a stool, so I tried to find it but before I could get the container of chocolate cookies, another hand grabbed the box. I turned to see. It was dad. I felt awkward. As we never talked much after that. And whenever we find each other like this, it feels even more awkward than before.
"Here, take it. Don’t climb again as it’s high and you will fall if the stool moves", he said.
"Oh thanks", I said and went to the couch. I could feel his presence behind me, but I didn’t say anything. Even if I ask, I don’t have any topic to describe, so it is useless.
"Aren’t you going to your room?" he asked, making me startled.
"No, I’m not sleeping and she won’t be able to sleep if I struggle so", I explained.
He came closer to me.
"Should I tell her if it is uncomfortable for you?" that’s when I snap, even though I’m barely controlling my anger. It is me who is walking on thin ice and when it melts, I can’t guarantee what I’m going to do.