Chapter 563
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"How the lady allows myself by her side is only the goodness of your heart. For ruthless is what I truly am."
’... Why is he expressing himself like this?’ — I thought as I could not believe what he declared with heartless sound. Lifting my gaze to see him frown, avoiding to look me in the eye as his countenance hardened further in dislike.
"Sigh. Even so... What I am is something I do not want to tarnish you with. I needed to inform you of this decision, for I still... somehow... I still wish for you to learn what my hand will do from my own mouth before you see it or hear about it by chance. I believe it is best to save yourself the surprise."
"... I understand what you say, but you still have not given me the real motives." — Without getting my mind to snap out of the blank his palpable selfishness instilled within myself, I blurted out... as cold as his tone had sounded while saying these things.
"... I have just told you."
"No. You told your wants, not what happened for you to decide this." — Looking him in those eyes that now seemed awoken, I declared... annoyed at what this attitude of his made me feel. Conscious of the glare I wanted to stab at him as I continued to say. — "What? Are you only going to say you will kill her and leave the reasons for my imagination to fill? Does the crown prince want myself to craft them based on these rumours I have heard and you say are truthful? I refuse to believe you mentioned this with such sentiment because if that is how it is... then I see no meaning in you informing myself of any of this for I will still think of you badly once you take her life."
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"I am not naive, crown prince. Neither am I witless. Perhaps I do value who I see in you. Yet I also know who you are known as. Ignoring such would be senseless."
Frowning this time. Annoyed by the way he had found to keep me from the evil he may indulge in so suddenly as if I ignored there was a side of him very different to the one he shows, I felt hatred be born within my stomach as he stared speechless.
’I did forget momentarily since he’s always sweet when with me...’ — I considered as I turned tired of dedicating this glare to the one my heart melted for... experiencing the pain that this disturbing dislike provoked in my soul while thinking he believed I would be alright with this kind of selfishness. — ’Yet, does he believe I am a child? He’s known as a hero to the Empire, does he believe I do not know how much blood there must be in his hands for him to earn that? It is not like I think every rumour is false... but exaggeration is surely in it... and even if it is all true...’
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"Then? Are you to explain it? Or should I simply believe it is because you feel like you should kill her and end this conversation, crown prince?"