Chapter 480 — Never the same One.
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’... He mentioned marriage...’ — I thought again... after a while had passed since my eyes opened to welcome morning as if the ponder in overflowing rejoice did not happen last night. Feeling thrilled as I felt my being as odd yet natural after waking with one soul composed of two. Experiencing the warmth of what awaited once this day allowed the crown prince and myself to meet... without a need to conceal happiness in useless caution for a destiny I feared was ultimately avoided by my survival and now all that mattered was to craft different days to those I learned in my past.
’... A speck of me wants to say "our survival"... yet I am no longer two...’ — "How odd it is..."
The complexity of my present self had yet to be fully grasped for only a night had traversed in time. Certainly not being enough for myself to fully understand this sensation running throughout what I am now as if I have yet to develop this new soul I am.
’I was once Marianne... I was also once Elizabeth... the past as both, I clearly recall it and embrace it... however the sensation of being two people is stronger in my consciousness... haha~ how odd yet satisfying... how confusing and yet natural...’ — "I feel as if mixed in myself... ahaha, yet solely one as unique as myself can understand such senseless idea... As expected, being who I am and knowing who I once was is what allows sanity to govern over the weirdness of this present... Although cleverness never lacked in myself, fufu~"
Cuddling to the sheets while still lying in bed I decided to rise, sitting on the edge as the mood within solely strengthened in joy imagining the days to come. I glanced back at the balcony’s door, from which I had tried to catch a glimpse of his departure even if breathless and late to see anything. Relishing in the throb my anticipation invoked knowing that... I was to dress today thinking of him... continuing to feel conflicted at the word marriage as the mix of myself felt delighted by the seriousness in his intentions, naturally so, for that is how this realm’s people continue to believe these matters should be while I also felt pressured as it appeared hast for it to be mentioned so soon.
"Marriage... I feel I am too young yet it is natural... it is proper in my head..." — I mumbled, nervous while ticklish... letting go of the thought as it was not a matter to lose my peace for.
This little troubled sensation was nothing... for it would not stop myself from drowning in the bliss... for concerns were not enough to let these feelings I fully own to be concealed or restrained...
"We are together..." — Smiling as I whispered it, I felt my heart shrink in thrilled joy, throbbing with anticipation. — "That is what matters~...! Goodness, I am blushing...!"
I believe that happiness is at the reach of my hand if I wish for it... and I do... I will craft it myself even though the divine in Izeneya has announced that a war is soon to break as my being came to be here as one of the opponents and I am willing to fight given the menace the enemy means to this happiness.