Chapter 442
’Why did I think it changed?!? Why was I so naive??! He’s supposed to be with her...! O-our being alive... What he said to us and the times we shared... None of it matters...!’
"Ngh! Sniff... I’m so stupid... an idiot... that’s what I am...! Hic..." — Pressing our eyes as if to force them to stop crying I couldn’t help but whine about this pain our heart was under... The realisation had been too much for us to take... We had called him somewhere I-... That we thought was special... only for him and I...
Yet in that very room he had once comforted us and... and mischievously stole a bit of our heart with that sneaky kiss... He had been with her... with the Female Lead meant for him... touching her in ways I can’t even start to think about because of how distressing it is to know so well while feeling like this.
’D*mn him... I hate him... I hate you, you idiot... why there of all places...’ — From the strong deception, my hands could not let my eyes alone. The scorch of the tears and the complexity I knew my expression was showing was something I couldn’t uncover, for I felt my face burn from embarrassment and sadness... from frustration at ourselves to feel for a moment euphoric to these feelings.
"In the end... it was from the beginning that I was naive..." — Moving so my back could support itself on the wall, I looked down at the hands that finally left my eyes. Finding trembling fingers on which palms tears would continue to fall. Making me laugh at the pathetic state I had ended in. — "Pf... ph... hah... I’ve been so stupid, really..."
"... Lady Marianne?"
"?!" — Immediately standing away from the wall, I turned my back, baffled at his sudden appearance while uselessly trying to stop the drops and cleaning them from our face that felt swollen and wet, unsalvageable no matter what I did. — ’Why is it him of all people??! D*mn my luck! This is the worst...!’
"... What are you doing in this place?... Did something happen?" — With the echo of his steps, I felt him coming closer... and I felt helpless as I knew there was no way I could make it so Clemente wouldn’t notice we had been crying. Much less, once he walked around us, ultimately seeing what I tried to avoid. — "My Lady... why are you crying? Are you unwell? Did something upset you?"
I shook my head denying and lying so obviously he didn’t buy it.
"Lady Marianne, something must have happened for yourself to be in this state. Was it someone that bothered you?... It is good I went out of the Hall... How come you are here on your own?"