Chapter 84
It felt as if we walked endlessly, bewildered by how wonderful the colours, the light, the scent, and even the touch of the dancing gentle wind felt against the bare skin of our face, caressing my dress and my long hair with every step we took.
It was as if we were hypnotized by what entered our eyes.
I was honestly confused by how we were reacting.
I was aware that it would be an amazing experience from the very beginning... But this much of... an entranced feeling... was completely unexpected.
After a long time of wandering around the designated paths that formed a kind of symmetrical drawing, intensifying the presence of our main destination at the centre, my mind began to work again.
Slowly, as if my thoughts had been finally permitted to regain their freedom, the reason behind my uncommon behaviour started to come up as the trance faded.
My sweet girl was the cause.
I could feel our heart unwilling to yield the reverie. Somehow, in my body, I felt the place as one extremely familiar, but at the same time, truly foreign.
It was such a contradictory sensation that I wasn’t able to say anything to Anne. And, along with the contradiction clashing inside us, I felt so happy to be able to accompany my girl as she encountered all of it.
Although her reaction was a hundred times more palpable than mine at the time, I had experienced these types of sensations before in my past life.
Everything was dark in my eyes during those endless days. I had gone through horrible things I never expected to encounter in my plain normal life and the world seemed off like I didn’t belong to it... Like I was in it, but not really permitted to be there. I was a foreign person in the world that surrounded me and... I had no place to go either.
I would take walks outside, trying to avoid being inside the four walls that made up my little one-room apartment. It was suffocating being there after those months I spent chained in that place, every time I closed the front door my air was sucked out of me and left my choked worthless body struggling to adapt to an undesired misery. However... Even when being outside, where no walls kept me trapped and insecure... I still felt caged.