I Refused To Be Reincarnated

The following day, the blaring alarm resounded twice, followed by Elena’s commands.

Julius leapt to his feet when he heard the first, but Asha and Arun’s gentle gazes prompted him to sit down.

’Don’t think about what you can’t control for the next two days. Focus on yourself before focusing on others.’

He reminded himself, crossing his legs and closing his eyes. Slowly, he absorbed life force into his meridians, the soothing sensation helping him mitigate his insecurities.

Matters related to the mind were complex, and now that he experienced them, he remembered Adam’s struggles.

Unwilling to worry him, he had cut himself from the outside world for months to recover. He had been worried sick, but now that Louise suffered because of his warped emotions, he understood his choice.

But he was also different. Many friends supported him when Adam never shared his burdens with anyone. What kind of mental fortitude did he have?

’Could I match it one day?’

He knew Shepard and Elena had high expectations, but surpassing him? It felt unfair. After all, Adam was his dazzling big brother who worked relentlessly to improve himself. If not for his physical limitations, he had no doubt Adam would have been an arcanist much more powerful than Shepard. But he was gone...