Book 2: Epilogue: Ayase Saki’s Diary
16th of July (Thursday)
I really blew it. I never had any confidence in Modern Japanese, but I didn’t think I’d actually do that badly. I’m just bad with all these novel-related questions. Of course, I didn’t want to just ignore the problem and leave it at that, so I bought a lot of reference books and worked through a lot of mock questions, but when it comes to the real thing, I always break down.
I’m thinking about too many unnecessary things, I guess. I should just focus on the actual meaning of the text, and move on when I come across problems I can’t solve, just like Asamura-kun told me. Any discrepancies and troubles the characters go through are just so unclear to me. I can’t understand at all what they’re trying to say when they talk on such vague terms.
They should just be honest and directly state their feelings to each other. If you hide your honest feelings and keep your own desires in check, you won’t be able to bring your romantic feelings to fruition… Of course, I know that this is just my twisted way of thinking.
Still, Asamura-kun is really good at teaching. To be honest, I nearly gave up, but I think I might have found a small ray of hope.
Thanks.
17th of July (Friday)
This lofi hip hop Asamura-kun recommended to me is great.
The noise like rain pattering against the windows is really calming.