Chapter 219: I hate you because I wish I was you
Selene POV
"Maybe you should think things through," I mumbled sighing deeply. "Sometimes we make decisions forgetting that somehow, it’ll not be favourable to us one day and it might also make us lose out on something. Plus, it’s not always good to pay evil with good,".
"I know that!" Noah sighed "But I am tired of trying to understand, Nora of hoping that one day she’d come to her senses and see that every one of her actions hurts those around her and finally see that getting approval from my father is the last thing she needs. He’s never going to change,".
"Poor Nora!" I murmured feeling pity for her "I can imagine how she must have felt when your father scorned her mother. It shaped who she became. The woman she grew up into. She thinks weakness is a sin. She fears that if she shows how scarred she is underneath he will look at her the same way he looked at her mother,"
Tears gathered in Noah’s eyes "I’m so lucky, you know," she sniffled "I grew up in an environment where no one cares about what you do. Where making your breakfast is considered heroic. My mom would heap me with praises about how I am growing into a strong boy and will one day save the world..." A sad smile crossed his face. "I miss her sometimes,".
"Have you...ever visited her since you left?" I asked curiously.
"No!" he shook his head "I’ve not had the time and when I had the time, I am always scared that she won’t want me just like back then. When I first got my Lycan... the fear in her eyes, the repulse and then the terror that followed. She couldn’t wait to have me gone from her and not once has she tried to look for me or reach out. At one point, I had to hack into my dad’s phone to monitor if she still cared. Despite my dad trying to convince her to come see me for once, she wouldn’t,".
My heart squeezed with pain as a tear rolled down Noah’s eyes. We all were victims of one circumstance or the other. It is impossible to think that life only deals unkindly with you. Perhaps this was an eye-opener for me. When I started my revenge, I was convinced that no one could have had it bad like me. I was cheated on by my mate, and forced to stay in a loveless marriage without friends or parents. I learned how to do a lot of things myself. I never had a chance to be a woman... to tap into my feminine side.
But for Nora and Noah... they were destitute. Two lone individuals are shaped into adults by child experiences. For the first time in a long while, I was determined that I would be proud of myself for not sinking into my misery. That I would hold my head high and be thankful for everything I have.